I just have to get this off my chest...I have a friend on Facebook who Ive never met... Her name is Jessica and she a noodle in California. I can tell her just about anything... But shes going through some messed up private stuff right now so she hasnt been on here for a while, Ive been trying to find another pretty girl who I can share problems,ideas, and well...just talk too, kind of like a therapist. So I found a girl... OK two girls... Blond with dreads... One hasnt responded because she has so many friends shes overloaded with guys trying to flirt with her and hadnt realized that Im different... The other one I messaged earlier and said, (can I text you once a day before bed to tell you how my day went... Im a cool guy who will offer advice, or just listen to you, and you can do the same without worrying about judgment)... She texted back...(your a loser get a life),that really hurt my feelings...I miss my friend Jessica Gonzalez... This other girl just looked like an open minded person, she had blond Hair dreads and tatoos. So I treated her like I already knew her which gave her the power to hurt my feelings and she abused that power with her first and only sentence. But I wont let that one cold hearted person ruin my good nature...I have to realize that there are sad people out there... And they can look nice while they have no compassion. I think the devil is trying to make me go back to being cold and shallow myself...I wish so bad that my beautiful wife would talk with me like Jessica did...but its still even better to have someone who isnt my wife to talk to about things that I cant tell anyone else... Jessica I need you bad...no one can fill your shoes. I hope your doing o.k., and as for the girl in dreads...I my want to at your name so people dont make the same mistake as me...but I truly wish you the best and I know your a good person deep down...it just takes some longer to mature than others,I was just like you when I was a herowin addict and hated myself.But now that I love myself...I have room in my heart to care about others.As you will someday yourself...I really needed to just talk and you missed your opportunity to help a stranger...do you feel good about yourself that you hurt and embarrassed me? I sincerely hope not. God bless you dread headed gritty girl...someday the insides will match the outsides I just hope you dont have to get ugly old and fat before that happens...Love/Jeremy
Posted on: Fri, 08 Aug 2014 06:07:40 +0000