I just keep falling. I know that I still have people saying that I am fine. Depression is an invisible illness. I am not doing well, at all. I am exhausted most of the time, I fight with my Mom. We both thing I should do inpatient. What I know is that there are a lot if situational factors involved. The stress of 3 of us being here has been escalated but the Manager wasting we have to go. I am starting the testing cycle on the hormone therapy this week and have 4 medical visits in the next 10 days. My insurance will pay for the rides. I need a car to get boxes, pack our things at Moms and take them to storage. We need to get down to a suitcase each to be ready when the Manager posts the eviction notice and I do not want my Mom caught in that with no where to go. I have found a monthly rental close to here, the unit was bought up by a lot of investors and ended up with a lot of drug business going on. With reasonable prices, a lot of snowbirds bought units for seasonal use. Pretty mixed environment but they have been working hard to get their reputation back. I talked to Disability this morning, she said a few weeks. I need to try to come up with first and last month rent; $1,100. My deposit in addition is $500 and another $300 for utility. It is a 1 bedroom but we are sharing a living room, we will be grateful, I know this help is a long shot. I am doing everything I can and while I have articulate thoughts and can share them, I have time, a lot of it, that I sleep. The Femara side effects are hitting the areas of existing arthritis and my neck/shoulders burn at times but better than having cancer. I want to stay in Surprise to help Mom. Also Elijah is starting the GED/University program with Rio Salada College in November and it is walking distance. I truly expect I will get the Disability with this appeal. It will take all of it to stay in the apartment but once I have all my storage, I can start selling and downsizing. When Elijah finishes the classes, my hope is he will do school at least part time and they can help him find a job. I will also be getting on the wait lists for assisted housing. I have to go now, I have a doctor appointment and meant to shower but needed to get this out of my mind. If you are blessed and can share with someone struggling, my Giveforward is on my page. I can take paypal donations at cheryljnu@gmail. I know a lot of you have written me off but I am dealing with serious health issues. Once the applications are in, I am looking at at least 6 months wait. I just need to keep going. I have talked to so many service organizations lately and they are all at their peak. I am not the only one that was living a paycheck away from disaster. I am grateful for my family putting a roof over my head this long. I just had no more money to give Ellen but I let her keep the phone I gave her until I had service cut this month. Mom glows talking about how helpful Elijah is but she turns 80 in a couple of weeks and can not handle us being here. The issue with the Manager broke down walls and it was ugly. Please Help if you can.
Posted on: Wed, 15 Oct 2014 20:16:53 +0000