I just spent an hour and a half writing out a hurried, repetetive, and very honest email about how much love and appreciation I feel for the recipient that probably included way more feels than it was necessary to include - which is something that would typically keep me up for hours wondering whether or not I should have said this or that and feeling stupidly vulnerable; instead, I am filled with happiness at having written it. Emails may be impersonal, but this was less of an email and more of a journal entry dedicated to someone that means more to me than I can begin to explain. I didnt stop to second guess myself, I didnt waver over the send button, and I didnt stop to reread what Id written over and over with doubt and then slowly backspace everything Id put into words. I feel lighter, as if my untold thoughts had been weighing me down, and I am glad that I can say almost positively that after years and years of keeping my thoughts and feelings closely guarded I have finally broken the chain the keeps the thoughts inside of my head, instead of out in the open where they belong.
Posted on: Thu, 17 Jul 2014 11:33:01 +0000
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