I just started feeling good about myself because I am following a strict 1200 calories diet and exercise 1h30m at the gym. Its only been four days since I started going to the gym after IslandWater..... . . . . . But just as soon as I start feeling good, they have to go and call me fat and tell me I havent change yet. I hope they realize that even though my body havent change yet, the fact that I overcome my binge eating disorder including laxatives and anorexia is a big change in me emotionally. Have they ever wonder why I dont want to look pretty like all my cousins/aunts? Or the fact that I dont want to go out and get a life? I hate pointing fingers, but its their fault that I have such low self-esteem and depression..... I wish the both of them would do their research first or talk to a professional before coming at me like I havent give it my all. they laugh and call me stupid when I get emotional over what they said, but they should also realise how downgrading they are about my efforts..... it makes me want to rub it on their faces that when I do succeed, I dont need them being there acting like theyve been supporting me. Sure, they are by paying for the gym, but to put me down every time I start feeling positive isnt helping me at all. The least they could say was keep going and work harder instead of I dont see any change if you are working out hard. The best thing I can do is just try to put their words past me and keep going even though I am hurt.
Posted on: Thu, 10 Jul 2014 04:26:32 +0000