I just wanted tolet everyone know i appreciarte all your comments today. im just not able to talk right now . july 10th 2014 i had a beautiful little man named jewelian walter lee hoefer he weighed 7 pounds 3 ounces was 19.45 inches long at 8:08 pm. he passed away in my bith canal after having him naturally with no medicine at all so i wouldnt hurt him more then he was. the doctores recesitated him and he was breathing again they rushed him to the nicu to try and stabalize him . he has a rare genetic heart defect called hypoplastic left heart syndrom with an intact atreum septal. he was diagnosed with this when he was in the womb. doctors told me he had a 10 percent chance to make it so i kept hope still doing anything to save my son.but expecting the worse. the nicu then ca,me and told me his heart was slowing down to come i knew he wasnt going to make it and he was struggling for his life. i got a preacher to come and baptize him and i held him after he baptized him i told him i loved him and i told him it was okay that god would take better care of him better then i ever could and id see him another day i then gave him a kiss and he took his last breath looking peaceful .. i know god took my baby anfd id never wish this on anyone. they let me sleep with him all last night after passing and keep him today.. i gave him a bath brushed his hair anf took alot of pictures i love him more then anything in this entire world and my heart hurts to the most extreme a person could possibly withstand . its hard coping that i had to give him back and walk away but he will never be forgotten and if love could of kept you here you would be alive forever .. so my heart is very heavy and i sit and wounder why but i will remember your tiny wimper and you listening for me because i am lost now and i dont know what to do... i wanna go home and see my beautiful son charles.he is such a good big brother and loved seeing the baby. but thank you all for your support without everyone behind me it be alot harder i just feel like i have died my life will never be the same .
Posted on: Sat, 12 Jul 2014 05:12:33 +0000
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