I know everyone struggles with stuff.. Loss and addiction seem to be the ruling class of misery these days..with lovelorn coming in close at 3rd. I see talented, happy go lucky people just fall down a hole. People with skills id give at least the pinky off my weak hand for. From Cooks to Carpenters and Lawyers to Laborers. And i dont get it for the most part. Ive been beyond sad.. and ive been effed up... and ive been butthurt by love. But i never got caught up in the crusher i see now. Im an asshole to some of my friends because i worry daily about them, and i dont know how to react to situations i cant make better by being reactive. Or by nust saying Hey!!!! What youre doing to yourself is no secret! (Slap!)... I KNOW everyone has to decide on their own, when their real life begins again after dark times. Im kind of in the middle of my reboot,and i keep everyone at fair distance these days and upset people who i know love me, by not letting them really be there for me. But through it all ive kept smiling...and i do far less damage to myself in hard times than i used to, and to say i keep smiling because i have to would be a lie. Its because of a lot of you. My friends i dont always let in, but chat with you on here. And i just wish for my friends that are struggling right now .. To know that i love them. Im just not that tactful quiet guy. Too much loss to watch more happen in front of me without speaking. People always say i wish i had said something I dont want to wish that anymore. And ill take my chances with the repercussions. Much love. Soapbox put back in the closet.
Posted on: Sun, 08 Jun 2014 16:47:01 +0000
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