I know that I contemplated Christmas Decorating today, however there has been a job that I have been putting on the back burner for far too long. It desperately needed to be taken care of. So I decided before I did something really FUN that I always look forward to, I had get this job done! I have rubbermaid container, after rubbermaid container, full of what you would call my fat clothes in my closest for literally years. SO many styles, so many sizes, so many reminders of unhappy and insecure times. I know they say get rid of them, get rid of the big clothes so you dont have anything big to get back in to. However for me, that was just too much. I think I kept them around as a crutch or a just incase. Logically it isnt a financial thing(even if I did tell myself that so many times...keep them they are good quality clothes, too good to giveaway, you may need them again. But honestly that is crap, I will always buy new clothes no matter what size I am, so that was not it and if you know me at all, I really dont save anything...so this is a weird thing for me to have all of these clothes still here...these big tubs staring at me every day! Well today was the day, I dont know what hit me...But I just had to do it!! I have to say this has been such an weirdly emotional day. I am sort of sick about the money going down the drain, however I know it doesnt have to, I could sell some of it. I look at this stuff and cant believe I actually wore some of it...I mean to be honest I know I am smaller.. of course I do but I really still think of myself as the same size....does that make sense?? When I think about myself I still see myself the same way...and then I see a picture and cant believe that that is me...so when I looked at these articles of clothing I really cant believe it. ...and then the memories in each pair of pants, or each sweater....the memories of doing low knee bends to make them stretch a bit to fit, wiggling around willing them not to look to tight. Praying as I pulled them over my hips that the button would do up and not be too uncomfortable...and the couples pairs of Faithfuls that no matter what, even after 3 days of bingeing or the day after a long stretch of Holiday Celebrating they were always there, they would fit not matter what...like a best friend that always has your back, no matter what. Most days I tell you to do it for your health, for your family and your body. Do it so your kids see that this is a lifestyle, not about how you look. I tell you to not worry about the number on the scale, or the size stitched in the back of your jeans, it isnt about materialistic things...it is about how you feel in your own skin. All of those things, I do still believe and I still think are the most important things to remember on your journey. However for me, today has totally been about how I look now, and what is stitched into the back of my clothing....it is about how hard I have worked to look a certain way...today seems to be about the materialistic side of this journey. Today I will take the time to think about those, maybe trivial but realistic steps I have taken to reach my goals. Today I think I will finally allow myself to celebrate!
Posted on: Sun, 16 Nov 2014 22:13:56 +0000
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