I know you are not in this page but I feel I need speak to you. Yesterday morning as I jumped out of bed at 7am, as I have many mornings during this last 6 weeks you was NOT there for me to take care of and realize slapped me dead in my face. BRAKE #1 As I had to push through that memories of you was EVERYWHERE. I socked in the GOOD ones and pushed the tough ones away. As the evening hours came I had spook of you SO much I was numb. Then the night fell I just pushed past the hours that was set out for ME and NATTIE TIME. Till I just couldnt go ANYMORE. I remember thinking to myself You are drained now you are running on little sleep from the 22-NOW you can sleep WITHOUT crying!!!! As I layed my head down with NO thoughts but sleep I could feel myself slip off. Then the tough ones came, All the seizer, and the pain look on your beautiful little face!!! Thank God Pow Pow came thru the door to bring me out of it. Then I drifted back to the NOTHING state of mind. Then at 3:45 AM I was awoken with tears pouring from my eyes. And once again I just could NOT see that beautiful SMILE and Big BLUE EYES!!!! I just could not move out of that bed for it seemed so cold then I realize the air condition was on, and YOU know how Pow Pow keeps it 63 at night. So I prayed for that to turn off just so I could get to my computer to see you and that BEAUTIFUL SMILE once again.I LOVE YOU NATTIE!!!!! I know I am thankful for NO MORE PAIN!!!! but damn THIS HURTS and I MISS YOU SO SO VERY MUCH!!!! With LOTS OF LOVE and KISSES, LOVE MEME
Posted on: Fri, 25 Jul 2014 11:35:16 +0000
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