I like to try to stay positive and I dont usually post stuff like this, but things have been very hard as of late. Why do I have to be so anxious all the time, being an emotional, confused wreck which is keeping me from living a normal life? Why, just when things are starting to look up, does everything have to crumble, usually because of myself and things are out of my control? Why do I have to be so unhealthy, and no matter how much I try to feel better, I lose the strength and am in constant pain all the time? I am my own worst enemy. Ive been praying my entire life for blessings and a path that leads to less pain, but Im sinking further into a black hole each day. Nothing seems to work. I slap a smile on my face so people wont worry about me or ask because I usually just break down and sob. I have no idea what to do. I feel like Im on a road to nowhere. People tell me to pray, as if I havent. I am in constant prayer. I dont know the reason for my pain and what good it could do for my future. I feel like its holding me back from wonderful things in my life. I dont have any direction in my life. Im holding on by a thread. I really hope things start to look up soon and this pain will cease. I hope I will have hindsight and be able to understand this time in my life. All I can do is ask for prayers. God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can, And wisdom to know the difference. - Serenity Prayer
Posted on: Mon, 31 Mar 2014 22:27:58 +0000