I miss him, I miss him missing me. My days used to start with a message from him in the morning. As I woke up each morning first thing I would check is for the yellow envelop at the corner of my smart phone. My mood would lighten up at the sight of it. I still do look for it each morning (it has become a habit) but only get disappointed ‘cause that yellow envelop has stopped coming for a long time now and now my days begin with despair. My days used to carry on with at least 4-5 phone calls or messages throughout the day from each other, but that all has stopped now. That effort only showed that he was thinking of me, now he says to me “just make believe that he is thinking of me” “make believe that he loves me” (and be content with it), huh! A lot of evenings we would hang out together, but now no more, not even a phone call thorough out the evening! The days would end at night with long conversations and “good nights” & ‘love u’. It still does but not as frequent as before and only as a formality or from a sense of duty & with exchange of few words only. The “love u” has long vanished from his lips. He used to say he can’t do without me. But reality is just the opposite I am finding it difficult to go on without him. He is in my thoughts every single moment of the day. My days go on, I have to put up a façade all of the time, with no choice but to carry on as if everything is usual, but deep inside I am in pain. Why do people change like that, even after giving indication, hopes, painted pictures otherwise?
Posted on: Tue, 24 Sep 2013 15:55:38 +0000