I need time. Love and patience. Cannot anyone see my world is you all. I am breaking. I am collapsing. I feel numb and sick. Pain consumes my body and yet I cannot feel it. I go insane. I cry all the time. I know you tire of it. I know it drives you all crazy. You do not know what to do. I need your love. Tell me you love me. Give me a hug. Ask for me to help you do something. Reach out to me. I want to feel you need me. I desperately try daily to show you I want to help. I have and will continue til I am frozen still. Blue and hollow shelled. I am not a bad person. I have been through a lot that I do not understand. I have been hated and called names. I did nothing to be hated by my peers. I was fat. I was asthmatic. I cried. I cut myself and hid in the shadows. I stayed quiet in social settings. I tried hard to keep the only people I thought cared around. I loved them unconditionally. I called them my favorites. We grew up.. we fell apart.. I lost my only friends. I now am fighting the anxiety. I call all of those who matter. I get various responses. But I do bot know anyone believes that I hear it. I hear the dread. The question. Is she going to scream. Am I going to be a problem. I am not a problem. I am Heather. I am a person. I am needing support and patience. I need kindness. I need hugs and I love yous. I am hurting. I am in pain and I am losing. I am getting help. I do go to therapy. They can only do much. I can only do so much. There comes a day where the one who hurts sees who hurts them and decides it is time to speak up. Today I speak up. I need this. This is what I need. I need all of my family to help me. By family I do mean both my mom and dads side. I want everyone to know I love them. So:: I love you all! Ron Chapin Tiffany Chapin Wolf Chapin Samantha Chapin Debbie Anderson Donna Green Ashley Zimmerman William Bowers Celena Hixson Brandon Bowers John Bowers Angela Bowers Tim Bowers Tammy Chapin Tracy Chapin Joshua Chapin Cody Lee Chapin Cindy Hixson Rick Hixson Dillon Wade Hixson Michael William Chapin
Posted on: Sat, 16 Aug 2014 18:44:07 +0000
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