I patiently wait for that moment when all the shattered pieces of my life come back together. I tell myself today Im happy no matter what. I promise myself to stop letting others hurt me. I pray everyday to believe in god and love again. That they both still exist and that its never too late to have it all. Sometimes I envy others when I see them and their beautiful children. Not out of anger just wishing I could be them for a brief moment in time. I wonder why that life wasnt meant to be mine. .. but despite everything i fear and everything i want I take a good look in the mirror and breathe through another day. Still patiently waiting for that moment when the emptiness goes away. Im happy I am but never truly satisfied with my life atleast not yet. Im hopeful that through my writing and through all the love that surrounds my life it will somehow complete me. ( Ive written something so open and full of life and pain, and passion and misery and triumph that I hope it will somehow help others appreciate and everything and everyone that is important to them. 2+ years fighting tears off as I wrote about death and life and love and over coming so much pain Im finally on the last chapter but not sure how to end it. Waiting for alittle inspiration, this book means everything to me. I need positive vibes, I can do this.)
Posted on: Mon, 15 Sep 2014 16:52:03 +0000