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I ran 10.5 miles today... felt good. I was thinking about what I have learned this year of running, about myself ... I realise how many areas of my character were stunted. I know what I told my kids to do, but I had not actually worked out a lot of it myself. I think there are areas of our lives we are confident. We reflect the image of God. We know our identity and we are full of love. We are not easily shaken and have healthy responses. Then there are the other areas.Ones that are twisted and tweaked by our own perceptions, beliefs, ways we may have experienced life and sometimes just lack of experience. I would say, for whatever reason, athletics or any competition for that matter, stirred up in me an unhealthy response or two.. .I am forever grateful for the advice that I keep getting from runners, to keep at it, just run, it gets easier, it takes time...etc. But the compulsion I have had to get good at this has been a slightly deranged thinking.I really had quite an immature thinking. I started out with good intentions...running to get in shape for Africa. It didnt seem to be too bad at first. My kids had to listen to me learn a lot. Then came Africa, it turned out to be a fitness trip that I knew nothing about.. I never had done pilates, crossfit or yoga... so ouch! Chris Overstreet had to work with an intensely broken person when it came to feeling I was not enough,weak, old, and not going to keep up.... he encouraged me and began the process of me growing up. I got back to the USA and continued to run. I think I am finally figuring out how to be me, while I run. I dont make running an identity, but I can express the nature of God through it. I can be free to run or not to run. It is a gift to be able to do it. It is not necessary to live.My body changes with age and I have to honor it the way it is... I have to enjoy it the way it is... and I have to be grateful for whatever it can do. It doesnt mean I am not the same person, just a changing of the shell that houses me. I still talk more than my kids want about running. I like learning... but the best advice everyone has shared, is just run.
Posted on: Sat, 06 Dec 2014 06:09:48 +0000

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