I realized this morning that my dreams are coming true, not in the - TopicsExpress

I realized this morning that my dreams are coming true, not in the way I thought and wanted them to come true, but true enough. What I mean by this that as a young woman I dreamed about being a NC Senators wife, having a big house with fine objects in it to have dinner parties for powerful people. I longed to have children who went to fine schools. These dreams didnt work out in my life. But preparing myself for the Earth at Risk conference, I realized that my true dreams are about what is happening to humanity as a whole. The dreams I had of holding traditional power positions were off base and Nature wasnt going to allow them to come true, thus the reason for the unexplainable infertility and my inability to attract an upper-class, ambitious man into my life. However, the dreams I have of meeting people who are making a difference and who are coming up with solutions to our crisis have been opened to me. But to move into these dreams, I had to move beyond my comfort zone. For example, Im not that thrilled with traveling to San Francisco alone and staying in a cheap hotel with the bathroom down the hall way. Im anxious that I am not going to be able to figure out the public transportation system I need to take to get me to the conference. It would have been easier to skip the conference and simply fly to North Carolina to visit my family for Thanksgiving. But I followed the unconventional dream and signed up for the conference. Now to see what comes out of me following a deeper dream than the nuclear family dream. One more example: I dreamed about going to Harvard University. I dont know why I dreamed this, but I guess I wanted to be with what I thought would be the best minds of my generation. Of course, being dyslexic and not brilliant in taking tests, I wouldnt have gotten into Harvard. Instead, the Universe led me to Massachusetts and I went to the public university, UMass. I didnt have access to the upper-class Americans that I would have met at Harvard, but I got a good look at the other classes. I ended working with organizations like the radical student union.