I recently told someone that happiness is a choice. I really do my best to make that choice, to live that choice, be happy. I am going all the time to dinners, movies, shows, drinks, dancing. Run my 3-4 miles and burn my 400 calories Play all kinds of sports I can Walk my dog under the sunrise and study the majesty of the trees Chat away endlessly on my iPhone Read so many books I have it so good I have a good job, work with people I like My cat gives me the best hugs imaginable all off the time I have the best kids and we have amazing conversations My house is warm and spacious Yet I have this feeling that life is passing me by. The days are just slipping through my fingers. Depression has been a constant struggle for me in my life. As it might be for everyone I guess. I am very spoiled having a great doctor and a great mental health therapist. Maybe depression is like allergies? Starving people dont have food allergies just us rich fat spoiled people with too much food. Maybe i have depression because I have to much? Maybe when the world is trying to starve you, rape you, murder you abuse you it takes away time and space for depression. I feel like I could really use a good break to go my way right about now. I could use a mentally stimulating connection I havent found.i have so much, why is it not enough? Its not enough though, and I cant pretend it is even if I am supposed to. Life is passing me by. Days Slipping through my fingers. My hair has turned grey, which makes the outside match the inside. Luckily Im highly functional at the moment. Im searching far and wide. Lord I could use a break. A mental stimulation, a connection, a something ... All Ive got to do is be happy. All its gonna take is some warmth to make it. All Ive got to do Is be happy ... m.youtube/watch?v=ddnRtFd7Hps&desktop_uri=%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DddnRtFd7Hps
Posted on: Fri, 25 Oct 2013 10:32:09 +0000
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