I sometimes think of questions Id like answered when I get to Heaven. Knowing full well that by then I wont care one bit. But for now I cant help but wonder, was the hypertension to get our attention to the mild pre-eclampsia so that we wouldnt attempt a homebirth since baby was going to go into distress during labor? Or did the induction cause the distress, though induction was needed because of the pre-eclampsia? Did we do the right thing or did I miss something earlier on? Last night, while the OB doc sat patiently answering all of our questions, knowing he didnt really have all the answers without a crystal ball, I suddenly had a peace wash over me. This has been my sign that we are doing the right thing. That we are where we are meant to be. That we are listening to that still, small voice over all the other clamoring there is around us. And today, after hours of induced labor, another OB doc quickly looked me in the eye, knowing I was the bridge to this family, and said, This baby isnt going to stand much more of this and..... I was already nodding. I knew. A c-section was needed and the beauty of this frustrating and frightening realization was that it was 1:45pm and the team was suddenly at the door. No one was home in bed. Baby was delivered by 2:05pm with an 8/9 Apgar score. And if I could have hand-picked who I trusted the most to make this call.....to do this c-section, I would have chosen the one who was there, treating me like an equal healthcare professional. I am sad for a homebirth plan dream to be over but I am also very relieved and know that we (midwives/OB docs/doulas/Family Practice docs/OB nurses/anesthesiologists) can work together, in a cohesive and caring manner, with respect for the families we serve.
Posted on: Wed, 23 Apr 2014 22:32:35 +0000
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