I stayed up late thinking about well, the untouchable, the sacrosanct, the above criticism: my exes, though they seem to criticise and diss each other unduly and duly quite well. It never quite seems to end and also like it seems I say I can never really quite tell who they are; I dont even know if theyre real as in human or how much of a figment of any imagination they are. It doesnt end til it ends and theyll be with me, always and some well stay around but theyve seen me on varying levels it seems and in different spaces, and theyve judged me accurately, perhaps, and/or inaccurately, but anyways like I say they never quite seem to leave me, so even if I do get married someday theyll be with me then, and always hopefully in some good way. People have access to me, however much is permitted, determined, in understanding perceived, rarely in rarity, scarce, scarcely in scarcity. I guess some more than others overall went through more shit, were permitted to, before meeting me, and it amped up, the testing all the way through. But anyways, cheers! Its just a day, continuing, persevering of an existence in this world, perhaps, a life with you. I guess whoever I marry if I marry will have more access to me, but the times we shared before and continue to share holds its own relative meaning and value, and everyone sees different things in ways revealed, unseen. But youll always have those parts of me. The parts of amazingly weird, crazy, and unusual in usuality. Ive dated one year of my entire life; it feels like seven years of condensed relationships. So crazy, you helped me develop, mature maybe even in dealing with your shit, which you may have been responsible for in part, or not. We had this being close at times and I guess sometimes its been weirdly, reversably funny. But thanks, it was like these slits of time, existence, and somehow persistence and there were these slights of experience in the universe for slanting, varying levels of experiencing all these worlds overlaid, staid, strangely, and unstrange. I cant imagine having slights of knowledge without you, whoever you are, so here goes: Sigh, Ive been so lucky, blessed through so many hawt guys, haha, though I never really talk about my private identifiably I guess its in the datalogue, somewhat easily found https://youtube/watch?v=yIXSkwTGFbw
Posted on: Sun, 25 Jan 2015 12:13:37 +0000
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