I still cant wrap my head around everything thats happened in the last month. Could be misconstrued as comedy with how it all works, but you cant script this... its too perfect. See the patterns and colors of people, know the truth and where I should have made better choices for my heart -but- you live and learn. Sometimes knowing overcomes common sense... I forget that as much as people could be on the level, there are usually still too scared for passion. An exciting chase, or ultimately someone to want them- an ego stroking.... not something to have and keep like a favored secret treasure. Fear will do odd things to people... but my friendship and caring isnt a flavor of the week- and I certainly dont play games, so its automatic lose with most of society.... thats okay in the grand scheme of things. You always win if you learn. OG LOVERFACE. Truth trumps.... and Ill always speak mine.... even if it makes my voice shake. Hahah Not everyone will get it.... a mistake? Sure.... but mistakes are mistakes are whatever, dont exist. It all traces back to one chance meeting, and whether it matters to them or not, -in my eyes- everything is sychronistic and happens for a reason. Through the stumbling debacle- maybe I just taught myself the best lesson. How can I connect with and enjoy someone so rooted in darkness? That would throw away an instant click-connection for what... nothing? Why would I want to want -that? There was a light.... but after his fear, my emotional face-plant should have been the little flashing red panic-alert hahaha these things dont happen by accident. And theyre the questions that need answering. Which may take a minute.... or twenty seven point five...... thousand. Who said the best way to protect your heart was to pretend you didnt have one? Hahaha irrelevant. Refuse to be dissuaded from caring. My truth can make up for all the ones lacking.... preferrable to the alternative. Here, Have a little light- Ive got some to spare ;-) The horizon line is getting closer..... and damn, if it looks like a tropical sunrise and tastes like candy.... it is ours for the taking. Soooooooo ready for new beginnings. And deeper paintings. Lets peel this flesh back until everything is exposed, glittering love light diamonds in sunlight cascade. Tomorrows only a blink away from now. And! while rambling supreme- did I mention how grateful and reverent I am for every true friend -that would do anything for me- and appreciates me for exactly who I am?!? ... my trust and faith forever enlies in you- cause youre what I deserve, all that I hope for, and more than I need. I love you, immensely. with that- adieu.... good night..... great dreams ^_^ Coffee, tuneage, and snarky remarks in le am... maybe a smile or two?
Posted on: Tue, 27 Jan 2015 05:02:48 +0000
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