I think I just need to say goodbye... Its been almost a year since you have left my life. It has been a struggle like no other struggle I have ever known. This past year has taught me how to be a stronger man and let go of the past. I wish it didnt have to be so. I spent a lot of lonely nights thinking about you and wishing we could be together. I learned that it just wasnt meant to be, no matter how much I wanted it to be real. My wife knows everything. She supports me through thick and thin and just wants me to be happy at the end of the day. She told me to go after what I wanted but I knew it was wrong. I would never forgive myself. Every time I think of you my heart hurts and I cant breathe. There is no way I can live like that. I avoid you at all costs now. I try my best to go as fast as I can at the supermarket, gas stations, hell anywhere I go. I can feel when you are near. I always swallow the hard lump in my throat and go the other way. It takes a lot of willpower to avoid anything that has brought you so much happiness in quiet moments. I spent so much time trying to figure out how to live without you that I didnt realize that I was already doing so. It gets better with each passing day but you are never far from my thoughts. I loved you at one time. I know I always will, even if I never see you again. Im going to be ok. I never got the closure that I needed. We never had a proper goodbye. I guess the time has come so..... Goodbye potato chips. Cuddle up next to candy and cake, they only have ice cream to keep them company. Ill never cheat on my diet :D :D :D Admit it: How many of you thought I was talking about another woman? LMFAO!
Posted on: Wed, 03 Sep 2014 06:19:16 +0000
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