I think sometimes too much, yeah I known...... I think way too much..... all the time!!! Anyways what I have been thinking about with a great amount of uncertainty about how Ive been feeling not just lately but for quite some time now. Ive been trying my best to get past it but I am not very sure I can. You see, Ive been experiencing times when I seem to step out of myself. When this happens I seem to step moments sometimes a whole day or more ahead of myself. I am overwhelmed with information that floods my mind. Thats when everything starts to happen. All of the information that rushed into my head, well it makes no since at first to me and then slowly everything starts to fall into place. I walk into a store and I some how already know what every soul in the store looks like before I even enter. Not only that I already know what they are going to do and even what they will say. Other times I have had these strange dreams where I am someone else or inside someone else and I see myself through their eyes. I watch myself with a feeling of fear and of hate for me, and its as if I am feeling what they feel for me. I am looking through the eyes of someone who hates me and is afraid of me. I felt their fear and hate so intensely that I woke up in shock. One day a few months back. I had realised that I was in that same very place I was in my dream. So then once I had realised it was happening right at that moment I looked up and stopped what I was doing and I saw him looking at me with a very disturbing look on his face. A look of fear and of hat for me. So like I saw myself do in my dream through his eyes, I smiled at him and turned around and I walked away from him. I had this series of dreams and many more around about ten plus years ago. But most of them never really made much since to me then. It has only been in these past couple of years that the dreams have been manifesting as moments in my life, and in these days of my life. As they fall into place they make since more and more to me. As I realise that I am not wired like normal people. I do at times wonder what normal means. I feel like I am in The Twilight Zone sometimes. I think about how only maybe half of those dreams have now fallen into place. I think when will the rest of them fall. Will it be as it has been so far and I not be able to change anything like all the times before. Things are going to get worse if it is fate what I have seen. If I could put it all into words you would understand how serious and truthful I am being. Or.... Maybe Im just crazy.....
Posted on: Sun, 01 Jun 2014 10:16:18 +0000
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