I use to be so gullable.But now I dont trust anybody .Ive had my own blood lie to me and about me.Ive had friends that I would confide in and next thing out of nowhere the whole world would mysteriously know my biz.Ive had lovers that betrayed me with best friends or blood.Its so bad I dont even trust the person who gave birth to me.Ive been dragged thru hell my whole life from shelter to shelter with my moms.Im the 1st born out of 5 so I seen and endured the most and was the guinea pig.My moms always thought I was the evil cold hearted child.But really I was just trying to maintain strong in the jacked up situation I was thrown in as a child.My mother was so clueless as to really what was goin on with me or what happen to me.And now shes so confused as to why I never trusted her.Its because From Youth I felt like she never really protected me.So Moral of the story.Those are where my trust issues and idgaf attitude stem from.But I cant blame her because she to came up from an effed situation to so the cycle just goes on.I tried to turn to the religion she raised me in.but how could I when I seen the hypocrite it made out of her and how it wasnt helpin her much? And I know people aint perfect .But dont look so shock from the person I turned into?The enviorment I was raised in made me this way#SomePeopleBeenSoShattered that its going to take a looooong time of healing to be fixed.
Posted on: Fri, 08 Aug 2014 05:41:37 +0000
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