I want to write a note to any of you who might be curious about my life right now. Having gone without internet in my home for 12 weeks, I must seem less available than ever before. I am doing my best! I know Thomas and I both are. These last few years (maybe even before that) my health has not been so good. As some of you know, from my letter on MiddleWomen, I was going through some difficulties this time last year in relation to my mental health. I finally went to see a doctor doctor this morning. After discussing my history of depression, disordered eating and even self harm I got to have full blood work done and I will be having a psychiatric evaluation soon. Im simply tired of being tired and I am ready to do something about it. I know many of you, my dear friends and family, have dealt with every mental and physical issue under the sun. I finally decided that knowing if there really is something wrong (my bet is on a deficiency or imbalance of some kind) was better than feeling bad all the time. I am sure everything will be just fine, I am very glad that Thomas finally convinced me to get started on the track to getting better. In some ways this isnt the start, we do all the things your are supposed to do - eat well, drink water, take supplements, exercise, get plenty of sleep, keep a schedule, etc - but it hasnt been enough. I dont mean to get any of you down! I just want you all to know that I appreciate you all and I wish I could give you all more time and attention, but I just cant right now. I keep day dreaming of the scene in Little Women where Beth is nestled into a bunch of quilts on a bench in the garden as her sisters paint tea cups. While I am grateful for never having experienced Scarlet Fever, I could use a rest and maybe a tea service. I do get a lot of rest (and drink plenty of tea), but something else must be going on and I am sure we will get to the bottom of it right away. I am looking forward to going home for Thanksgiving and Christmas! I always love getting away from work for a little while, spending time with family and being inspired by new things. I want to feel rejuvenated! Especially because as I turn another year older (24 on December 27th) I will begin one of the busiest and most grand years of my life. The plans for Middle Women (and even after) are fairly well laid out and with the help of my amazing team, especially the President ;-) - I know we will have a great time. Id love to be able to enjoy it fully. Some fun things to look forward to include a film festival, empowerment through music concert, poetry writing competition and the 3rd annual Middle Women Project. Thomas and I have had the pleasure of working with about 20 students this quarter (all getting college credit for working with Middle Women) and we are hoping to have anywhere from 30-50 students next quarter working on independent and group projects. Thomas and I (with the help of our students) are putting together the Middle Women business plan, value streams, brand, vision and much more! We are preparing to file for Social Purpose Corporation (b-corp) status and generally figuring out what we are doing, why we are doing it, and how it will be done. As we slowly, but surly make a profit off of our work Thomas and I will be saving up to build a tiny house this summer! Our sustainable/environmental efforts can be seen all over our tiny apartment and we enjoy planning for the future. The ultimate goal is to buy land North of Bellingham, build an incredibly sustainable home, grow our own food and share what we know with others. The first step to all of this is, of course, my health. I am happy that I am one step closer to finding solutions and I will be sure to let you all know what I know as it comes up. Thank you for being in my life!
Posted on: Tue, 18 Nov 2014 21:51:49 +0000
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