I was challenged by wife about a month ago to tell what im thankful for i have to much to list so ima give you a story My Story so in the end maybe you can help someone cope with life or maybe you can find some answers but some of you on here know of me met me a time or two or you really really know me but this is MY STORY Jan 10 2014 my life flipped upside down in and out end over end some of you know that feeling and some may never know just herd about this feeling well i was told that my lymphnodes were inlarged and all i could think about was im done this is it its over for me but there were people placed in my life that reassured me that i was gonna be fine my thoughts this is the routine everybody is gonna be fine but i soon learned that i had Classic stage 2 Hodgkins Lymphoma My Next question to myself was why me and how the Hell did this happen to me Well as i go into my first chemo things werent that bad then to the second treatment one of my special i call her my Cancer councler ask me you feeling ok I POKED my CHEST out and told her she couldnt KNOCK me down she said well we will see. Well let me tell you 2months ago when i got up off the ground things still hadnt sunk in yet but as i regained my strenth grew my hair back felt like a normal person I began to go to church and listen as they said my name out in a prayer request you know what thats when it got real i looked around at the people that didnt know me from adam that had took the time to pray for me it Started to hit home just how fortunate and thankful that i am.From Jan til around June is still a blurr for me some things are coming to me some things i never care to know that happened. In my heart and in my case just my case that i truely believe that Cancer was the devil i beat myself up i beat my loved ones up i made them cry i even made them ask why to this day i dont have that answer. I REALLY didnt no how bad i had acted till people told me how Damn irritable angry hateful i was. Since chemo is over i am now in REMMISSION it was time to go back to work ive logged almost 1800 miles in 2 weeks there have been good days there have been bad ones there have been days i had to pull over because i couldnt see the road from the tears ive pulled in church parking lots and prayed to god to forgive me for the way ive acted towards my lovedones they didnt deserve to go through that but i have tried to piece together and make some kind of since about the last 9 months and i believe that god used the devil to make ME A BETTER PERSON IN THE END maybe i neede one hell of a Reality check maybe i payed the price and spared a child from having to fight for his or her life maybe i spared someone who couldnt have handled it mentally or physically whatever the reason i am so THANKFUL THAT IN THE END THE OUTCOME WAS THAT I AM A BETTER PERSON Maybe this has all been in the making from the beggining maybe god put my wife in my life because he knew she could handle it but SHE DIDNT DESEREVE TO BE PUT THROUGH THAT nobody knows what it is truelly like until you have been throught it with thhat being said we together can move mountains we are stronger as a family i learned that prayer and GOD are real thats for sure people were placed in my life that could handle it to help me in the healing process But in the end there is a reason for this horrible disease maybe for the ones who fought it and survived maybe it was to make you a better person in the outcome for the ones who gave there all and lost the fight maybe you spared some kid or made the people who were in your life stronger But if you ever get that phone call or see that person with a bald head or ever in life close to someone with cancer tell them My Story maybe they can make some scence out of it and give them hope in the end whether they beat it or lose the fight it was put on them lfor a reason maybe to open a persons eyes or to make them stronger In conclusion im a better person im stronger im a siner and always will be a siner so will you whether you wont to admit it out load or not but we as christians are all one and thats all that matters we have each others back far and near neighbor or enemy we are all one CANCER touches everybody involved whether its skin cancer to stage 4 lung cancer it effects everyone whether scares the crap out of em or make a person pray for the first time you will never know till youve been effected by it I want to thank everbody for having my back and praying for me because there were days i could pray for myself we as survivors and nonsurvivors we are special people who can handle anything together we are stronger you may never no why you may never find closure but with Faith There is hope and there is a reason. it wont let me tag everybody but you know who you are
Posted on: Fri, 19 Sep 2014 22:31:09 +0000
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