I was getting ready to go to bed , but i wanted to give a really big thanks to a few ppl that really helped me have a awsum day yesterday as of midnight . Thank u to the ppl who helped me smile today , who helped me remember one more day that i am worth something and for trusting me soo much. Without these ppls love i can only imagine where i would be and it more than likely would not be good. I only wish i could give my second chance away to one person and thats my little cousin Zach White , Its very hard for me to accept another chance at life when i know i would rather see someone else i love benefit from it. I will continue to accept its not my time and i will also realize i cannot give my second chance away to bring him back. But please know bubby ur still here in my eyes and the eyes of many others and i will take this chance i got in life to carry on the memories and the white heritage as much as i can. I will honor those that has had to go with God and i will stand tall here on earth until i am called to be with u all. I will learn to accept i have failed and i do deserve a good life but it will take lots of hard work to get to accept it fully , I am learning as i go to live this new life and i must say it is hard but i am looking straight ahead and not looking back. I got goals that will be accomplished and i got many ppl who love me and care about me on my team cheering me on and helping so much. God thank you for the life u have gave me and for another chance to show u i can be better, thank you to all the people believeing in me , And thank u to a very special girl who is helping me along the way also , She is accepting that i have failed , she knows i am starting all over and she is willing to take me as i am today and have faith in me that i will move on to become somebody and not go back to the life that i had of darkness and hurt, This special girl that came into my life means allot to me , more than she will ever know , with the people i have standing beside me in this battle i am fighting there is no doubt in my mind i will win. The old michael is not comming back ever again im sorry to those ppl who want the old me back but i promise the new me will be much better once i learn to live without the things i relied on for sooo many years. I have been mentally working on myself for a while now , i called in reinforcements because i realized i could not win without them and God on my side. I am taking many steps to a good path in my life and although such a great thing can be sooo scary and hurt at times this new road this different road is going well and i feel good inside , i am happy but yet part of me is soo empty inside because every day i wake up i feel as if i am missing something and i will have to learn to keep fighting and realize i am not missing the people who left me but only was shutting them out of my heart i think, Loosing so many loved ones back to back messed up my head for life but i must say it also taught me some good lessons , Thanks u everyone i love u all and appreciate what each of u has done for me. Without you guys having my back i wouldnt be able to move forawrd thank u all for everything i will always remember what u have done for me.
Posted on: Sat, 07 Sep 2013 09:56:17 +0000
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