I was panicked. foolishly. My main concern was that I was not spending enough time with Susan. I obsessed about it. I had it exactly wrong. EXACTLY WRONG. I should have been doing my own thing, knowing she would be there cheering me on. She wanted her normal life with me checking in when I had time, not me constantly trying to spend more time with her. I feel like the idiot I am. I will never meet another person like Susan. I just feel so awful that I got it exactly wrong. Hey. I grew up listening to songs like this. youtube/watch?v=BTxvWW667Mg I do not know why I cannot let it go, ( is this just more obsession ? ). I miss her so much. It still hurts a lot.
Posted on: Fri, 17 Oct 2014 05:11:41 +0000