I watched Steel Magnolias last night for the first time in a very long time. There were plenty of scenes I had forgotten over the years, and it turns out I had actually forgotten the entire ending. Dont get me wrong, Ive seen my fair share of tearjerkers, but this one is different. Sally Fields, in what is arguably one of her most dramatic scenes ever recorded, goes into a rampage of emotions after her daughters funeral. She weeps, she screams, and she thrusts her fists into the air. She explodes in frustration & anger, shouting that she just wants to hit something, someone. She just wants someone to feel as bad as she feels. The woman nailed it. Ive been so blessed by the good Lord above in the past 21 months. Ive practically walked with my head in the clouds, trying desperately to accept every drop of grace & mercy He has to offer. But the other side of me, the fear-stricken, worrisome Leslie, often wants to thrust her fists in the air. I sometimes just want to sit in my car & scream, purposelessly and wordlessly, just as I did on that 3am drive home last February. I want to scream at the top of my lungs & pound my fists on the steering wheel, beating it into a black, rubbery, Armor Alld pulp. The anger is deep, and the pain is deeper. The desire to grab the closest thing to oneself & rip it to shreds still exists, and Im certain it does for anyone whos ever lost a loved one. However, as I sit here tonight & aimlessly dot the keys of my iPhone, I am ever reminded of a hope that lives so much deeper than any anger or any hurt. I believe in a hope that not only eases the pain of today, but slowly melts the pain of the past. I believe in a hope that mends, forgives, and opens doors. I believe in a hope that renews lives, restores friendships, rekindles marriages & heals the broken. I believe in a hope that promises a future of perfection, a truly magnificent continuance of the love we experience here on earth. I simply awe at that kind of hope. I am but a blink in eternity, and I am loved by the one who created it all. Talk about something worth shouting about..
Posted on: Sat, 15 Nov 2014 04:09:59 +0000
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