Idunno I mean during the day Im thinking about existence and contemplating reality while hypothesizing about the most irrational numbers in existence and how they relate to all of nature and how apparent they are, researching ancient things, soul searching and examining the apparent forces of the external world in their effects on my psyche and how that effects me, and then I how I respond to that, followed by noting the ways that the universe then responds to my response, and many other things... But I cant even easily add two double digit numbers... Then I try, and end up in some weird mind tangent where I must find a pattern for why it works and how I got the answer. Then I realize Ive already thought of that and now I need to remember the exact situation where I thought about it first. Then I begin contemplating the (un)reality of time and memory, and get stuck on thoughts about déjà vu, which bring about the realization that Ive experienced doing this multiple times but its different every time, and that brings me back to the understanding of life and existence and growth being spirals, which I then extrapolate on by applying it to nature and the physical forms of this world and how spirals are ever apparent in all things which brings me back to Phi, and then back to the patterns, and then I realize that I forgot the sum that I was looking for to the the addition problem to begin with and then get all flustered and give up on my math homework and go back to trying to solve the problems with government and the system and how to create world peace and promote love throughout all relationships, which I then use to create some sort of poetry or I end up trying to talk about it with someone. Then I think about how creation comes from inspiration and that source (of creation) is the inspirational muse and that creation and all things are within us and at our center. And how the reason its so hard to reach that inner peace and awareness is because of our wishing for them, and that they only come when we stop searching for them. And then I realize that Im searching for and answer to all of the worlds problems, but then I understand that I already know that the solution is simply to be, allow, and release resistance, and that Im simply trying to help this be understood and help pave the path towards the solution that will come naturally. And then I think about how it will not happen until it is meant to, and how every thing has a specific reason and also that patience is absolutely important on the path to peace. And then I start thinking about how that applies so well to my individual situation and my journey and things. And then start going on about how the external world reflects the inner. As above, so below. And what I need to do, and things. And then get on to the whole topic of reflection, which as we all know, can go in any direction, (and, according to my recent discoveries about the golden ratio, infinitely in ways that directly /reflect/ phi), and then I go back to all of how Ive gone full circle and Im back to the number thing; and by this point there no doubt (Im serious) has been some sort of grand synchronicity relating all of these thoughts, the book Ive been reading, three of other my classes, current events in the world as well as in my life, the song thats playing at the moment (it being, of course, extremely intense and life-altering on its own), something I did research on recently, something else I had been talking to someone about lately, all at the same time. So I start thinking about synchronicities and how often they occur and how my belief in them creates the reality of them and go on about manifestation and the projection of self outwardly and then again all of the things are brought straight back up and I go around in circles, realizing I have been doing this but then think about how its not really circles, its spirals, because new thoughts came into being each time, and that it is all dynamic. And how that relates to us, and then about how things that are repeated in life are to teach us lessons, and the lesson is taught in different ways each time because we are completely different each time because we too, again, are dynamic. And then i start thinking about the fact that our paths are planned out and predetermined by our higher selves but how free will comes in to play and then I go to the fifth dimensional thoughts and multiplicities and probability paths and extrapolate on that for a bit before jumping (so to speak... Some of you will get that...) to the other dimensional beings, and aliens and things and about their helping the planet and our ascension. And then I start thinking again about my role in all of this and how thats overwhelming and how I dont know what it is yet, and so I get back to the patience thing, and needing to stay grounded here but without subjecting myself completely and all that. And so Im back on the topic of the self and then I think about the contrast between self and other and how were all the same and why and how were here to experience it to discover our Oness. Then once oneness comes into the picture I go on to the Source related thoughts once again, and how amazing everything is and how all things are God and all of this that just goes on and on magnificently. But then there is also the thoughts about how humans blindly believe things that are not beneficial and how the system is such a part of them. And then how although its awful, much like the state of the world, they arent ready for the truth and it will be made apparent when and if it is suppose to. And then I realize that whatever album or playlist I was listening to has ended and so I then check my phone to play something else and by this point three classes have passed and I have learned much more from my own thoughts in the last three hours than I would have by doing the five math problems and sitting through my Spanish teacher lecturing my class and how his ego is huge and I feel sorry for him because he disappears underneath it and thats awful and how so many people have this problem and I want to help them. So then here comes the self and other thing again. And then I look at my phone and see what time it is because Im tired of being in this class and then I am back in the illusion of time thing and everything that goes along with this. And then the fact that Im bored while being taught bothers me because I want to enjoy learning so I start thinking about the system again and how its not beneficial and how it needs to change and then again with the readiness thing and... Im going to stop now. Imagine me at night. I apologize for all of that. Hopefully you were entertained.
Posted on: Tue, 01 Apr 2014 20:06:23 +0000
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