Im a single mom to two smart, funny, beautiful girls. I never thought I would be a single mom. I thought their dad would be my partner for the rest of my life which is why I married him. We, as most of you know, were miserable with each other because we got married after only knowing each other 4 months. We didnt know each other. We confused lust with love. We had called it quits many times before but always stayed together, my reason being that I wanted Eve to have two parent household, his reason was he was stuck here. He cheated, he lied, he was abusive physically, mentally, and emotionally. First chance he got, he left. Catalina doesnt know her dad, she probably never will. Eve knows her dads name but she doesnt remember what he looks like. He chooses not to call, Skype, write to them. He chooses not to ask how they are doing. Hasnt asked for pictures. He got another girlfriend 3 weeks after he left, I was only 8 weeks post partum. He got another girlfriend pregnant and that child is only 11 months younger than Catalina. He refused to send child support stating that since he supported me for 3 years, he no longer felt obligated to take care of his daughters. It wasnt until it was court ordered that the girls are being compensated. I suffered from post partum depression and it wasnt until how I saw how Eve treated her newborn sister that I forced myself to get better because she was only copying her mommy. I went to counseling, I started hanging out with my friends. Everyday, I forced myself to make the day better than the last and it worked. I ended up getting the job at the school, which enabled me to take care of the girls financially by myself and start paying my family back for the house. I started dating and while some guys were great, others were not but I refused to be with someone who was negative. Its been almost a year since my ex husband abandoned us and in this year, I cried tears of anger, sadness, frustration, and joy. Joy that my daughters wont be witness to negativety. Joy that I can raise them how I want. Joy that I get to kiss them good night and good morning everyday. Joy at their accomplishments. I turned a negative into a very huge positive. Now, Im with a wonderful man that treats us with love and shows thay he wants us to be in his and his sons life. I have a wonderful job that I look forward to go to everyday, with wonderful people. I have great family that help me with the girls and same with friends, who care about us deeply. Not every day is great, but it sure damn better than that day last year. Im a proud single mom who takes care of her daughters while still enjoying who I am. I have many roles, both good and bad. But I am Angelica. Mother, daughter, sister, peer, friend.
Posted on: Mon, 14 Jul 2014 02:03:37 +0000