Im coming to realize its all about letting go... Which can be near impossible when its something u wanted so bad....But then when u realize that what u had really wassnt what u thought it was all along... it as a fiscade full of compulsive lies, cheating, dirty who*eness, control, n abuse. It makes letting go a f*ck of alot easier than u ever thought it would be. I like to think that I am actually the lucky one in all this to be honest bc unlike everyone else i finally saw right through u. And got the proof i needed to finally stop believing the lies no matter how much i wanted to n leave forever. The hardest part of life though i must admit is when good thinys happen to bad people n bad things happen to good people. When its always the most honest, loyal, faithful who get burned n scarred the most. Nobody ever said letting go was easy but id rather take the time to do that n heal than numb the pain n repeat a vicious self destructive cycle like u. At the end of the day its whats on a persons conscience that they must sleep with n live with day by day for the rest of their lives. So in the end maybe being the honest loyal true person hurts a lil deeper ur scarred a lil more n the pain is a lil unbearable..... But id rather be true neday. Im gunna take the time to heal for once bc "hurt people, hurt people" like yourself. N thats someone i never wanna be. Im a pretty amazing strong beautiful honest person it just took me finally seeng through all the bull n getting away from the plague n control n constant put downs from some dumb slut*ty contolling manipulative compulsive liar to see how f*cking awesome i really am again. The best part of all when coming outta a situation like this again is finally standing up finally finding ur voice again. On that note to ne future friends family men whatev..."Id rather be hurt with the truth than comforted with lies." Keep it real, keep it honest, stay legit n true. Thats the best way to be even if u do get hurt in the process. Living with a clean conscience is a great thing. I still question how some people even sleep at night..... but it really dont matter nemore cuz i know im sleeping fine n will be. Ive been to hell n back n im still standing. Nobodys ever getting the best of me. On that note gunna go play some guitar with my baby boy. Acoustic jam sessions with my lil lover n running has been all the healing i need. Besides time. Its gunna take time but "You dont have to see he whole staircase you just gotta take the first step." And im proud to say that for once, finally I have. And m not ever stepping down those stairs again. #Peace#Love#Honesty#TruthTalk
Posted on: Fri, 07 Jun 2013 21:23:45 +0000
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