Im feeling somewhat defeated today. I want my strength back. My physical strength. Coming out of the hospital I was told to expect a long and slow rehabilitation process over the next few months. But I didnt fully realize how much trauma my body had been through. The muscle atrophy that resulted from my being in a hospital bed for so long is something I hadnt even thought about... until I got home, and tried to pick up my life again. Im still so weak. Still fragile... and I *hate* it. I hate this head to toe feeling of weakness and incapability. Some days are better than others. But some days, like today, I just feel useless.
Posted on: Tue, 11 Nov 2014 00:29:20 +0000