Im not perfect by far....I have been one of the worst examples in my past.....but have always known right from wrong.....after I lost everything that had and I mean everything.I had some time to be mad,angry,sad,confused. ...you name it,guess what I felt it.......I tryed partying, drinking,looking for things to occupie or distract me from my losses. ....guess what it didnt work....so after all the thinking and being mad I done I came up with the conclusion....I was doing and had done everything right and it is fare to say I was a nice person and had a big selective heart.meaning I controlled my thoughts,feelings,and you name it I had it under controll.....but couldnt understand for the life of me why it never worked out......well in all my thought and spare time I had I asked GOD to take controll of everything. ...it was killing me from the inside out literally I felt like I was dying....and honestly wish I had died at times.( I know pretty harsh right but the truth hurts)so at this point im like done.so in saying this asking god to take control of everything you know and have is easy to say BUT AT FIRST SO VERY HARD TO DO...you once you ask GOD to handle your life you got to mean it cause as soon as you start getting blessed and your doing good and you start tryin to take control again. ..yep you guessed it GOD will um start taking some things back so you can see he is the almighty and for he is the one with all the power and has all the control. ...well when I finally got the concept. ......all kidding aside man I tell you I felt like I got hit by a train....not to scare anyone but I felt like a fish out of water and really had no clue of what was happening at this point. And after a while I began to come around.....and as I pretty much came to I felt alive like ive never felt before had this feeling of hope and was happy to be alive my body hurt for days because of so much anger,stress,and control. ..was gone all at once...now I didnt mention individual things god took away from me......besides just saying everything.but what I can tell you...is that in less than week I had my beautiful wife Tanya Fabre Sowell and 4 of my sons Blake Sowell,Kole Sowell,Garrett Sowell and Levi Sowell.back in my life and living and breathing better than ever before.....and several months later my son Kaden Shane Sowell.was back in life as well.SO I KNOW GOD IS GREAT ALL THE TIME.LOVE HIM,SEEK HIM,GIVE HIM ALL CONTROL AND NEVER TAKE IT BACK.....thanks and god bless us all.....I LOVE MY FAMILY
Posted on: Wed, 10 Dec 2014 04:13:04 +0000
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