Im pretty proud of myself...since Ive been down here, I have done a lot of things with Jesuss help to keep succeeding & continuing on a peaceful path...The reason I moved down here was to get away from an abusive relationship...not just with a man, but a lot of people in my life...I dont need help to stay clean, only Jesus can help me with that...alls an addict is looking for is a sincere loving person who wont continue to hurt them and sincerely be there...sure Ive had my slips but Ive been continuing on with recovery for 3 years now, but I have not fallen and stayed there~~by the grace of God I got back up with His help...it is my addiction to people I love why I left my old life...All the people that were in my life wanted to help me, even when I never asked for their help because I see they needed help with certain things so how could they help me??? I see now that they took credit for my accomplishments & that kept me down...and when I would try to separate from them, they would talk bad about me or try to keep me down because they felt that would make them look like a failure also...a lot of people would get mad or claim they disown me becuz I went my own way without their help which wasnt right...I DID NOT need their help, because it wasnt help...I dont know if they felt if they could accomplish keeping me clean, then they would feel accomplished with whatever it may be that they didnt accomplish in their life...Im proud to say today that Jesus & I have accomplished a lot since Ive been away from people who were seeking the reward of healing an addict which is impossible, only God can do that...I pray everyone who suffers from the Disease of many kinds of addictions realizes the only true help we have is Jesus...Never back down when you can stand up for yourself finally because thats the start to a strong peaceful life...I have a new doctor who I got on my own, I enrolled in outpatient mental & substance abuse counseling today & Im working...I do have people in my life today that push me to get things done, but as an addict, when I accomplish something, its a reward all on its on & it is what keeps me continuing on...I pray whoever is at rock bottom that they stop running to people for help, get down on your knees & ask our true Father for help, Hell be there for the rest of your life & he will never leave or hurt you...it took me awhile to see that, and Im glad the Holy Spirt gave me the knowledge today to see what an addict goes through, what makes us fall, and what the remedy is to live a rewarding peaceful life~~God Bless🙏😘
Posted on: Thu, 24 Jul 2014 21:38:07 +0000
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