Im shutting the ringer off on my phone. I need to go to sleep and shut my brain down and let it start to process what has happened. This is not being understood by everyone in my family. I cant be full on strong for everyone when I havent had 10 seconds to process whats happened myself. I think the words being abandoned and only thinking of myself are a bit harsh. But for now I need to be selfish and try to figure out how to be strong for one more day. And throwing guilt at me from all angles is not fair. Im not super human. I have to grieve too. That really hurt me. Those were very hurtful words. I hope you can talk to me differently in the morning. I cant keep blaming myself and having you blame me too. Good night. I love you. But I AM going to sleep now even though this is not acceptable to you.
Posted on: Sat, 29 Mar 2014 02:35:30 +0000
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