Im sick. . really REALLY SICK STARTED LAST NIGHT I HAVENT SLEPT, FEVER, PAIN, CONGESTION NOSE/FACE/EARS Everything is SWELLING. Thats why Im showing pics . LOOK AT MY FACE. . I have stage 4 lymphoma that is cancer of the blood and bone, by immune system, my lymph nodes , I have discovered new masses is in my left arm and behind my left ear in last 2 weeks I was going to wait until next year for treatment, but they were concerned because my white blood cell count is almost doubling every month.. HAVE TO DRIVE TO FORT WORTH ER BEFORE I GET HOME I DONT KNOW WHY IM SICK SINUS INFECTION? FLU? Something else is wrong, I dont know what it is I just feel it ..ITS NOT JUST THE FLU/INFECTION SOMETHING ELSE IS WRONG Of ALL DAYS TO FEEL THIS WAY! !!! HAVE DOCTORS APPOINTMENT TODAY IN DALLAS AT 4 WITH AGGRESSIVE CHEMO/IMMUNOTHERAPY TO FOLLOW TODAY OR TOMORROW I dont imagine they will do that if I am sick otherwise, I AM SUPPOSED TO FIGHT TODAY BUT I HAVE NOTHING LEFT I CANT EVEN FIND SOMEONE TO GO WITH ME OR BE BY MY SIDE BUT THAT DOESNT BOTHER ME AS MUCH AS OTHER THINGS. . I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO IM SO CONFUSED SOMETIMES I JUST WANT TO GIVE UP IM TIRED, JUST TIRED.. I try too hard I give too much I WAS ONLY TRYING TO FIND MY HAPPINESS I WISH I WASNT SICK, BUT I AM I AM AT MY WEAKEST RIGHT NOW WHY IS LIFE ASKING SO MUCH OF ME? WHY IS IT KICKING ME WHEN IM DOWN WHY GOD? WHY? I DONT WANT PEOPLE TO TREAT ME DIFFERENT ( BADLY)WHEN IM SICK I dont want to be a burden My HEART BODY AND MIND ARE HURTING SO BAD IVE GOT TO CALM DOWN, DRY MY TEARS, LEAVE HERE AND HEAD HOME Say a prayer I CAN DO THIS. . Love yall
Posted on: Tue, 11 Nov 2014 14:40:16 +0000
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