Immortal’s Madness By: Samuel Andrew Romo Talking to ones self Never knowing what’s in mind. Before comprehension a fixed ramble ‘Bout a Pearl a precious gem and jewel. Worth more than life For I beheld my heart And between it the sharpest knife I would not pace forth Nor should touch, Nor could think of again For it’s as cursed as a self pieced end. Yet, I cannot leave this sanctuary behind Take a place among the dead -Have a death meaningless. I prate aloud for the ethereal dark, The glorious Pearl to hear these thoughts Although mostly mindless talk. I spoke of my empty pass And only knowing of the embarrassments, For regrets, I wrote them then spoke them. But all words all wander to confront the future To tell a simple image I wanted to envisioned So real, and so impossible For such a complex reality, of a human heart As, I feel that emptiness -driving my mind towards forgetfulness. Lesser passionate Through the feeling of laughter and repent Holds so fondly on me now I pace forth and back From which I came to protect the gem By which, By which it is a Pearl. Pearl, Pearl I only hope to see Emits a darkness of no other night But by love for love We’re both connected in a spirited sight While I await lurking among a cruel candle light. For long, to long the angels, fates, and saints Has found a deity by the name of destiny I’ll go through all tragedies Only to lose and lose But never submit to another immortality To a minded trick, The thought of harm will befall my love the love I had repeat, repeat, repeat, repeat, repeat. As the twisted fates state: “It will be you and your own fault.” For I defy how it’s suppose to end in a fearless rant (Mouthing to the clouds) Un-sacred as the gem my love, a jewel again Pearl. As its inevitable forced away beyond redemption Yet content and lulled by a silent salvation Heavenly set and adored by no one else To make me fall at a grand humiliation. Far from me as sadden, godless as I am I’m pleading for a religious experience. Asking for reason why should this be Why should this be an uncontrollable desire? With misery at my side Helping beside the dawn As my madness grows And crawls along the walls. The morning rises and shines on these weary eyes of mine Hurting from being sleep deprived Carving out the hours I stood awake Where I and my dull skin have eternally to wait How golden and azure the morning comes I had to realize, Beauty at a primal state, Warming all things whatever the surrounding maybe. For I’m compelled to turn my head against the dark The one love and come face to face at the medallion of blinding fate As it dreads my sight I pleasantly close my tired eyes. I wake after dusk only to recall I had a dream perfect misery. For the stars are bare and full, The winds begin to form into “creatures of the hunt and night.” Like omens searching for my life I call on all beliefs to present an immortal cease To the unease breeze that sends out for me. With dream like creatures of No One Alone. As all know the uncomfortable candle light Plea beneath stars and whisper in the air And take the wish shared to (nameless) Pearl. As gods decree weaves Holy shall not be named But to only immortality. Call me god and I will not come, Call me by name to punish blessing I sent for you all I ask to justify such odd law? But Pearl answer me not It never has Is it darkness that conceals all noise Or not willing to reply? But your mother the Moon for told of your coming of age And your time is today, the night For I’m the sacrifice Willing to die for such a sacred rite. Death, has found me not During the lunar tide light Leaving me as a portrait of discarded immortality I shall not eat, For starvation will be salvation And ask nameless Pearl to take; My worthless decaying skin, my dry cracked bones as tribute Then asked if I was worthy of such grand treatment At first I came to know the date and time -Then convenience I was of mind Come and take this life of mine For it’s this immortal right to die under the daughter Moon Immortal Pearl, binding everlasting darkness As to taint your own holiness -Condemner of the Sun -Controlling over all Relieve the misery and cry the stars to fall, across the night sky. Answer the plea, under the night sky But lose your immortality, your existence I have to learn to leave at Sun rise The sacrifice I won’t allow to make I can’t let go at this time but ask Could the whole world wait? Would the whole world wait? For us to spend and share this (special) space together Stay with me after the rite becomes complete For I don’t know what will happen should you leave -All belief ends in tragedy And what’s left but emptiness A deep seated abyss to bare my heart with words of dying bliss I leer into the darkness The endearing abyss Where I say Pearl exists. Faint and dim as, hopeless bliss, to remember once happiness. I fixed my chin and smile to encourage cherished memories to be brought in. But there’s only dismay and forgetfulness as I rest. Again another day I think, for it’s always bright staring, staring outside Did I miss my time? Am I never going to die? I’m out of thoughts Blinded by brightness I can no longer hide from the darkness growing inside. Wrapped around Pearl, or a plague to caress every impending death No! Don’t let fate intervene Hoping my cries are real enough to find pity Lying to fates, a host of divinity But the truth is for us to be together Alone and forever, even through never seen one another. We’re close and never letting go -I would like to believe. What a tragedy to speak of. One has to die and one gets to live Be immortals like the gods did (Like the gods were.) Immortals are not happy with living long When fates are involved Pure love suppose to prevail The star crossed ones and the souls to know who you are. One get to die and one has to live What a horrible state to be in. At least when there’s death or life We’re both together but this is different We’re going to be without one another. A last bliss, should at least be kept to cherish A moment of stillness To imagine and respect memories I wasn’t able to enjoy With my friends and family I think of them, of cheers and crying The lovable sarcasm of just being together with family and friends, my prayers. But no, I’m staying right here! The dark salted air tasting of ambrosia sweetness And of nectar’s fortunate dread among waterless lips Gives liveliness to keep an everlasting bitterness. Harmonizing the demise to ashes and dust Cold, chilly air “bitter, bitter, bitter,” allow me to die Then why should I await a death that not agreed to come and caress, my existences Release my spirit and my spirit’s spirit As long as Pearl would hold them both. But now realize that crying with tears could be unreal. The goddess, god knows everyone fears death Offing your life, an everlasting path to oblivion -Being completely forgotten Still I’m rotting on, leaning on a, and carving out on the stone rock pillars Pillars beside Pillars in a cave Neatly design and exactly apart like Pearl and I Never coming close, mocking what I believe Hidden in a hill by itself Righteously hidden to be seen by no one else For alone I found you and alone I’ll keep you Alone I came to protect the gem by which it is not name Pearl. And alone I’ll cry for death to grip my chest Breathe in that cold heartless kiss and left alone to die. Or that’s how I proposed to go. But death or the dead seems to laugh at my misery and pain. Laugh at the first oaths I made. Would, could, should, not pass, touch, or think of the beauty Pearl possesses. Back then it could have been meaningless Or maybe that would be, My tribulation I should have given. It’s time for the last right Let it begin “Let the ceremony begin” I stood to honor what was worth to honor In its peaceful darken shell. Hidden like a tragic wish as a myth of goddess, gods golden form Love of humans and casts them with sins upon a gods true image. I’m asking the final request to demand a first and last kiss. But who am I to commend anything Or be between a mother and daughter’s loves, the Moon “Let there be no light to shine to show me where Pearl lies.” It’s time to forgive and ask to apologize again For the Sun to become dark and Pearl glowing, enchanting Being revealed, to let me have a blasphemous kiss. The Moon is staring down at the rising Sun Let them be as one The time has finally come I wait and wait to see the goddess, god “Darkness be gone.” I command as a taunt The darkness jeered, to enveloped my limbs And blow me away from there. I rise and ran to see the jewel, Pearl The goddess, god just laid; -Among her subjects of fine clothes, riches; diamonds and gold -Awe down their beauty to her soft white marble image, -As the new light reflect their worldly brilliances “Poor misshapen Pearl.” I deemed All shackle and chained lie naked to the ground, in an irregular symbolic pose Turned away to closed her eyeless eyelids But not before I looked into them I broke the bounds to released from all restraints, that which binds her to this material earth And covered her shameful eyes with old tattered shrouds I caressed her head as I watched hairs of unnatural gray crawl along with my hand It’s now time to bind her lips to mine But not before she moaned what I could not hear. I turn to listen to words of horror As she hissed with a split tongue “Bring my death” Which, my oaths would never allow. I took the knife close to her neck Not being able to confront it. Turn the blade and tried to stab myself Unable to speak, Breathless expression came from her precious, broken lips Chanting verses of holy curses, She sipped her last wish, to posses my flesh. Forsaking-my-oaths I Cut Pearl Precious throat -Like a burning arrow could pierce the heart As her hair controlled my arm I watch the harm Drank and bathe in her holy blood As to cleanse my love Or purify the human vassal I was To taint the dark forever slipping into nothingness What hardship it was to drink the goddess’s golden blood -The blood of wine and the wine of blood. The unexpected bitter sweetness of forbidden love For The love of the beautiful copse I made. Un-knowledge to what I done For darkness is never truly gone And I lie chained to eternity until the day Another true love A fair maiden comes.
Posted on: Thu, 11 Jul 2013 05:18:58 +0000
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