In about 45 minutes I have to wake her up and take her away. I have to voluntarily move her from the home shes known all her life, to a place full of unknowns. And to think, I chose to do this. From practically the day she was born, I knew, we knew, we wanted a better life for her. College is so important to John and me. Neither of us has a college education, and we wanted better for her. Little did we know how hard it was going to be to let her go. 18 years we planned this, and today it culminates into this. Waking her up to take her away. Im halfway between locking her in her room and telling her she has no business growing up and jumping with joy that our little girl is all grown up and ready to face the world. Its very difficult to push your child off that ledge...but push we must...with every bit of strength we can muster. And believe me, it takes strength to do this. There are times that I look at her and still see a baby...how do I push my baby out the door?? I know in my head that she is not a baby...but go ahead and try to tell my heart that. To me she is still that little girl with the fountain pony tail, dressed in her leotard and tutu, dancing around the living room and telling me shes a ballerina. She is the little girl in the I Dream Of Jeannie costume, folding her arms and blinking, she is the little girl waiting for her first school bus to take her to Kindergarten, running up the stairs and not looking back...but she isnt, is she? No. She is the beautiful young lady who is about to run, headlong into her dreams. This is what we worked towards all of her life, to this point. So, push we will...but we will also let her know that were never far away from her, that we will always be there to catch her if she falls and that we love her with all of our heart and all of our soul and that we are so very proud of her... Go, Toni Pennello, and spread your wings...this is but the first flight of many for you. Enjoy it for all its worth, revel in the freedom, soar in its possibilities...and always remember that you will forever have a soft place to land when you need to rest.
Posted on: Fri, 22 Aug 2014 12:30:49 +0000
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