In english. Since Im in Phuket, Patong 3d day...) Thailand is not Pattaya or Patong. I was travelling inside so many time, so different places... its just one of the faces of Thailand. But its not real Thai country. May be I dont know real Thai too... may be I just wish that it is green jungle forests, amazing quite beaches, palms with coconuts, cosy bungolows, people friendly to foreigners and beautiful warm transperent Andaman sea... it is my dream of Thailand. And real thai life is much harder - for normal thai person... but they are smiling, and more poor live - more smile.) That inspires! In such part of Thailand I start to feel different to usual modern life style with all devices, short list of pleasures and growing up consumering. I feel I miss some secret of life of this people. I miss simplicity. It doesnt mean that I dont value comfort - such as hot water and toilet. I think its normal to have a comfortable conditions of living in 2014 year... but desire to have more and more... more than you really need to be happy. To be healthy. To be in quite and peace, in love and joy. Im lost, like majority part of the world, consionsly or not consionsly people are about this fact. Its impossible to change in one moment! And changment is not purpose by itself... its just an instrument to be more happy and smile more often, enjoy your life. It happens by itself. All life is one non-stop happening. And what can I do? Observe myself! Observe how Im living. And tell to myself from time to time - what I want to change. Than it happenes.)) And in this way life becomes better and better - for my own opinion. Its my feeling of my life - that its better. ;-)) people can be not agree, but for me its like this. So than Im spreading vibrations of happiness and satisfaction. People feel this and relax. We all want just a happiness. But we have a wrong ideas about - what is it. Modern life gives us substitutes of happiness... because society takes our real life forces and energy. Society needs our living energy for support itself. When I went away from city, I started to see this. I became outside of most part of system. But still Im not out, and this is not my purpose at all. Im just following my way to feel good. Nature is giving me this feeling. Same as nice people and fruits, doing something useful and creative, that make me feel satisfied and enjoing. I feel tired... to fight with myself and life for my own place. And the most fun is that I dont need to do it. Because nobody fights with me. I fight with my own believes... I fight with myself for being better and better, forgetting that all I need is love! And happiness. That only I can give to myself, only I can open this door to myself...
Posted on: Mon, 06 Oct 2014 17:48:33 +0000
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