Inhale Om exhale gratitude slowly Bare w me this manifested in a vision through meditation needs to be written , but lengthy , and no editing , showing all today , but so are pujas .....they I think are worth it .......not that my words are worthy , not at all just sharing this is what my path is , teaching and following ........being a shadow now I understand , it was now I see an honor . Thank you to bubbles and cadina for an amazing weekend To my mom for being there , I know she loved the hotel the view the experience , thank you spirits and Amma for allowing this weekend . For Dianne to trekking down and spending the evening and day with us , memories . Varuna god of ocean Surga god of sun Agni god of fire All these three inspire me , live by I love water , sun and fire Daily I pray for thankfulness Woke up feeling calm and shaking my hands I know my bruising is not diminishing , my cells are low daily I know I believe , they will grow Surga agni Varuna addin laskmi Durga saraswathi to the mix Mostly the blend is Amma I know I talk about Amma a lot daily Im certain my family hears this name more than anything that my three yr old niece this weekend now says what is amma doing , lets go to India on a train ..... For me daily its my routine ritual has been the last eight years .... Lotus flower I always had a close bond or a mirror We all are in growth of the murkiness of our lives to develop to a beautiful flower . White or pink Four heads , like a Kobra the auspicious ness of this we all know ms Monica is scared of the one head let alone four But I have come to surrender and allow my fears to surface While I write this I feel my hands shaking , not with nerves or anxiety just a symptom . I the last eight years , have experienced a wonderful journey although many things changed the last six months and deep heart ache and closures , it showed me how out of sight of mind we all can be . In many years or one moment this is all I felt a loss of community the last few mos as everything changed , a family I once knew , a community to the starbucks I frequent energy morning To the nature of the horses to gardening to building To be connected as one w another But this weekend being with my nieces Showed me living through their eyes , how they automatically surrender , and learn how to adjust to this big world . Live second to minute to hour Certainly they have attachments to us humans Also how free , spririted how non afraid they are to approach people to learn to ask why or what are you doing Without judgement and the laughter a child carries The sound of OM . Ciera never experienced the ferry boat , although she looked so forward to it from winter time , the time came we entered the boat , she was so uncertain , of the unknown Whoa all of a sudden , auntie Im scared ...... Her fear cry , she went to her moms arms then I put myself in her shoes , how would I react for the first to is. We approach anything.? Face it , with love , be surrounded with people that love you will take care of you no matter what , show your fears Bubbles did , she was brave , so I said lets got to the other end of the boat but walk , feel the motion feel the ground hold my hand be free .....we walked , she looked as I said look up , look at he sides look a doggie is here all the children ....we reached the side she could look I to the water of course their is a fence up a railing , I leaned into it as she stood and watched , I said look at the water , dont think about how you feel hold my hand , small steps She did then I said lets go downstairs we are almost in the island ......I held her .......all we need is surrounding of knowing it will be safe and open and communication show your all .....dont hide things Ciera showed her vulnerability , amma took care of her to hold my hand to guide me to listen and love . To not put her in danger . On the way back ciera couldnt wait to get on the boat she walked all by her self went upstairs , she said Aunty I love the boat Im not scared ,Im brave .....lets go .... I learn so much from her and cadina This is my school of life lessons my love I am not perfect thank god I do not intentionally ever have or have indirectly or directly hurt , I made some bad choices , as many do My environment made me at times unsafe We all can react , at times , to a reaction I always say look deeper at the human and know them before ever making a statement even if an action has risen But see how they rectify it and face it Even when they are scared . I miss my relationship its ok to say out loud , I miss how the connection was , and the community . I know she has moved on. This is all that lesson . I wish her well , I wish one day, The light will shine we can speak , without any fences ..... Amma is the factor .always a bond . I miss the family they were very special to me, will always cherish the memories thank you . Om namo Illness is a great thing , it allows you to speak , but to also recognize , and to be in truth . To also share , in the past I stayed within and shared only when asked . I have grown in the past year , and know now how to be , I have also felt the deepest of pain to highest of pleasure and happiness . All I know is we are here to fill in this world To do good deeds to love one another To not judge , even the ugly , but to especially see it To support , encourage and to be a village One step one hand one breath at a time We are here to support art , music Be with a guru Support our community not just in our backyard Ghandi had a vision Newton had a vision God had a vision , still does Buddha as well Maya Angelou Einstein The Beatles , George with his trips to India and meditation back then We are all spiritual beings , religion has nothing to do with it All of you have a vision Can you imagine if we all , loved one another enough to build this world , we can heal it ..... I know I asked for healing via FB grow my cells and my blood ......l want to be around for my nieces and to travel to see Amma and more places I want to still make mistakes bc it means I am growing But not bad choices I want to fall in love again , I had it once that will remain forever , I cant have it back but I can move fwd and have more ......and be loved ..... So anyone interested ? Silly joke I know but it makes a sistustion with laughter and this is how we grow I need to grow cells ....... So surrender , let go , renew and be grateful I have a blessed life , many ppl in it I would love to thank So thank you Amma Mamina aka mom Ciera aka bubbles Cadina Jan Justin Dianne, abbey Chew family AK SB, DB and the munchkins KPaige LC Aussie New England family , all of you LP , DC, CC many more Dora aka Laurie India family Zoe , and all of you there is a lot to list everyone from assize land to Malaysia to canada love you om namo narayani New York Ptown Mostly Oshawa the community I cherished and had so many fond memories , Oma opa , CV kids and all the yogis New friends AC Everyone encountered my path thank you I know We have met for a reason amma has taught me one thing , amma places ppl in your path for a purpose Sometimes we dont see it nor understand But I always am grateful Especially the ones that , my heart leaps Thank you ......om namo Summer is here I plan to take time off to enjoy a new journey Ward island and nature Generate all the cells , blood I can get So everyone , be kind to yourself , love and dance or sing or play ....... Im going to take karma studio a new direction in fall depending on health status but Im sire I will be great amma take care Im going to go the route of homeless and acute illness yoga Parkinsons , altzimers , MS , cancer , ADD, autism ect It was brought to my attention , why isnt there yoga centres for us humans with these elements ? Are we not yogi enough if we twice or have territ syndrome ? This was said to me , when I was getting a treatment done last week ........ So , be the change and go w the flow Be one This new phase of my life , going to do some things differently , one is , surrender and show everything I am the four heads also the Fire , the ocean , the sun , and the goddess , also the lotus Its ok to allow your universe your god your guru to make you your destiny , others may not understand , nor accept , but be truthful to yourself be kind and let the inner guides lead , not humans , there is no forever , one day , it will also be out of sight of mind , and next ..........chapter ... Om namo I love you all Peace
Posted on: Mon, 02 Jun 2014 17:12:03 +0000
Trending Topics
Recently Viewed Topics
© 2015