Insert 131 Someone told me that with time Ill be okay and honestly time stood still for me since Craig passed away, it has been 2 years after his death and our precious angels were 5years old and starting at school, Faith was so much like his father now, even the way he walked, i admired watching walk and Hope would try to imitate him and they looked so cute. Death was having a hard time separating me from Craig, no man will ever replace him in my life, i still loved him like the day we first met. I gave away his clothes to a certain charity in Auckland park and black was now my favourite colour, almost all my clothes were black, i was still mourning my husband. It was a Saturday and the twins had gone to my moms house, Chloe and Tsidi had given birth to baby boys who were 3 years younger than my babies meaning they were 2 years old, everyone was coming to visit so i woke up early took a bath and wore my long black dress and i didnt put any make up on but rather a lip gloss, Craig hated make up so much that often time he would pay me not to put it on. In a few hours time they finally showed up and they left their babies and probably with mom or Mrs Sauerman, poor mommies. They made their way into the entertainment area and we all sat down as Tsidi offered to go get the drinks. Chloe: so how are you? Me: Im good, yourself? I faked a smile and a tear dropped from my left eye, its been more than 700 and something days after my husbands death but it feels like it was yesterday, i hoped that no one saw that i just cried but it was too late because Jake was staring at me and the sadness in his eyes was unbearable, he looked so sad and that broke my heart, he stood up and went to sit next to me and i lay my head in his chest and he kept on kissing my forehead which made me miss dad even more and later on everyone had to go and i just went to bed too. A week later the girls and I were meeting at a certain restaurant and woke up showered and wore my above the knee tight dress and black heel with a black scarf and i drove Craigs range rover which was black and red and went to meet the girls, i was a bit late so i got there hugged all of them and held on for a much longer time to Chloe, i really felt safe and her chest was so comforting which reminded of my late husband. Chloe: you look great. Me: thank you. App: So whats with all the black clothes? I giggled a bit. Me: i like black. Tsidi: Sam Craig said you must move on, its been two years already and youre mourning him. Chloe: thats true. I looked at her and smiled. App: Anyway when last did you get some? Me: haha App i dont want a man in my l......... She cutted me short before i could even finish. App: who said anything about a man? Buy a vibrator or something. Everyone giggled. Me: Craigs young dude was enough to vibrate me for the rest of my life even in his absence. Everyone went quiet and they stared at me. Chloe: Samantha live again, Craig wouldnt want you to be like this, try to move on though it might seen so hard please Im begging you. I nodded indicating i got his point and that perhaps she was right but how does one move on? App: atleast go on date and see how it goes. Me: okay okay i will. They all squirled in excitement. Tsidi: Good because his here. Me: whose here? App: your date. WHAT?!??? :o are they crazy or something? Before i could say anything else they were long gone and this tall white guy came in and greeted me then sat down. Him: Hello Im Parker and you surely look beautiful. Me: Hi Im Samantha nice to meet you. Parker: So Id like to get to know you. Me: Thats sweet of you Parker to say but uhm how much did my sisters pay you to be here? You know what dont answer, thing is Im not ready to have another man in my life i lost my husband whom i love more than anything in the world so it was great meeting you. Shock was written all over his face. Parker: Your husband was surely a lucky man because even in his dad you love him so dearly, i wish one day God will also bless me with a woman who can love as much as you after my wifes death 8years ago, it was a pleasure meeting you Samantha. He said that as he stood up and i felt like a fool, but then again i dont think any man would ever take Craigs place. After he left the girls rushed to me. App: so..? Me: he isnt interested. They both exchanged looks and looked at me and sighed, anyway we chatted about random things until it got late and they wanted to sleep over at my place so we all drove our cars making our way to my home. We got there and i decided to call mom and check om my babies and told them goodnight and i love them and i dont know what told me to go check into Craigs study and there was too much dust and i started cleaning and i opened the drawers an i found a gun which was full of dust and i decided to clean it and before i knew it, it went off and i was in a pool of blood as the girls rushed inside and before i knew it, i was out......... Sam :*
Posted on: Thu, 22 Jan 2015 07:52:10 +0000
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