Insert #16 After she prayed I was on another planet, planet Kat and Sikho. I was just thinking of how crushed Kat is going to be when he finds out that his girlfriend died. Mara Sikho nawe how can you give up so soon? They started speaking ke, I wasn’t really listening. I was just hearing sounds. My mind was far away. I thought what if Kat never becomes nice to me because of this thing, I didn’t know what to expect because they seemed cute together. I thought of her sweet voice, he cute smile with dimples, she was beautiful guys yho. Kat naye mhle shame umntase. I couldn’t bring myself to imagine how Kat would be without Sikho. She made him happy, they were a match made in heaven yho. I got up in those thoughts and went straight to my room and looked for my locket, I found it and opened it, I saw them smiling, they looked so happy. Tears fell instantly. I thought of the day Kat told me about her and how he much he smiled when he mentioned her name. My thoughts were interrupted by aunt Mpumi calling my name. Mpumi: Miso! Me: Dabs? Her: Yiza ngapha kaloku mntanam sifuna ukuthetha nawe… I put my locket back in its box and went to the lounge. I sat down and listened Mpumi: Miso, silapha nje mntanam kungenxa yento eyenzeke kuwe. We heard what had happened and siyakuvela mntanam. Umama uye wandiphonela esithi ucela imeeting she has a few things she wants make clear. She told us what you said at the hospital and ayimphathanga kakuhle lonto. Me: Yintoni le ingamphathanga kakuhle? Mpumi: she said you told them you do not want them in you ward and that they ill-treated you. Me: So? Mpumi: So she would like for you to explain to her how she had ill-treated you because she says she was treating you the same way she treated Sinalo. Me: How so? Mpumi: Andizuyazi ke mna mntanam because you were the one who stayed with umama no tata apha. So you tell us what it is that she had been doing engakonwabisanga apha ekhaya. Me: Akhonto ndizakuyi explaina dabs she knows what she was doing to me and she knows it very well. Mna andikhulanga nje ngo Sinalo, she was given everything she wanted. I had to work to get what I wanted and sometimes I don’t get it at all. So I will not repeat anything for her, uyayazi into ebeyenza kum. There was silence in the house… Gogo: Misomihle xa usithi I ill-treated you uthetha ukuthini because ndiyakondla, ndiyakunxiba, ndiyaku fundisa, you have a roof over your head. Now what is it that I never gave you?... Ndamjonga kakbi kanjani, yesus she was pissing me off because uzenza u holier than thou ngoku phambi kwabantwana bakhe. Me: Uyazazi gogo izinto ubuzenza kum. You know everything, how you used to beat me up and make me go to school the next day kodwa umzimba wam ubuhlungu. How hostile you used to treat me and just a few weeks ago you tried to poison me and my mom. I maybe 10 years old but I’m not stupid. I know when someone hates me and I saw that in you. Gogo: I never did that to you mntana ndini, kutheni uxoka nje? Me: Andisafuni mna ukuhlala apha because now I’m a liar, I was a thief and a bastard. Ndifuna uhlala no mama wam mna. There were times I even thought of running away. But because of ubhuti I stayed ndanyamezela. I don’t care ukuba ndilala nditye ntoni as long as I don’t have to be here. Mpumi: Miso, tell us what exactly happened kuwe kaloku ngoba awusiniki mkhondo. I want to know what is it that you say umama did to you… I told them everything, from when it all started to now. My mom was in tears. I got up after saying that and went outside and left them to deal with whatever they were going to discuss. I sat there thinking of all the things that I’ve just told them. I cried silently ndathi ndoziva ukuba ndi right ndabuyela endlini. They continued to talk, I wasn’t really listening, uyamazi mos umntana ngo bhoreka msinya. I was just in my own world and not attending school was one of the things that drove me crazy kulandlu. The decided that I go stay with my mom but I can visit anytime I wanted to. Yhu ndaqonda soze baphinde bandibone nange zipho apha. I couldn’t wait to leave yho. But eish, Kat. Was I going to see him again? Yho hayi we will see. Bahamba abantu and my mom and I went to pack everything that belongs to me, bendizohamba the following day. I wrote Kat a letter and decorated it. Ndithe ndisahleli ndibhala lo letter kwangena that lady. Hey andide ndibazi ababantu. Kutheni na, this is so weird. Her: hey soso, wenzani? Me: Ndibhalela uKat iletter, kaloku I’m leaving tomorrow and I don’t think I will see him again. Her: Ok. Soso, I had no idea you were living like this. I always though uryt mna and nothing was bothering you. Bendicinga ubuphatheke kakbi nje yinto ka Katlego. I was thinking you start seeing a psychologist. Me: what is that? Her: A doctor that will help you deal with is problem. Me: How is that person going to do that? Her: Uzamxelela kaloku yonke into ekukhathazayo then yena akuncede. Me: O… Her: Uzaya? Me: I don’t know. Her: think about it ke baby va. Me: Ok. She got up and walked towards the door… Sisi Her: Yes Me: Ungubani wena igama lakho? Kudala ndini bona ndinganazi nala bhuti…. She laughed and came to sit with me. Her: Ndingu nNaledi mna igama lam, la bhuti I’m always with is your uncle, my husband. Me: Ngowakulo mama? Her: No, he is your father’s younger brother… My dad has a brother that I didn’t know about? Banjani na abantu balapha because I would’ve asked him about my dad. Whenever I would ask about my dad they would tell me to leave it alone, they wouldn’t tell me I do not know why. My mom naye never spoke of him much and I had an uncle all this time? That is why he took me out mos that day and knew me mna ndingamazi…. Hehe bayafihle abantu balapha yhu. Hehe, I have an uncle sani . Maybe I will know how it feels to have a father. Me: Ok…then I smiled… Her: Bye ke baby girl… Me: bye sis Naledi… She laughed and left The following day ke we woke up and bathed and waited for bhuti Zukisa to come and fetch us. I went to say goodbye to Phato but I promised to keep in touch so he gave me his number. I said goodbye to ta Lloyd also and he gave me a very warm hug, Oh bethuna I will miss this soul yho. Bhuti Zukisa came ke and I said my googbyes to my grandfather because gogo did not want to speak with me. Sinalo came to hug me saying she’s sorry and she hopes I be hapy. I just said ok. Before I left, I shoved my letter under Kat’s door and left. I was feeling sad that I will not be able to see Kat every day. I got into the car and Phato was standing by the gate and we drove off.
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