Insert 48 I carried on with cutting my thigh deeper. Mbulelo: Simo Please..please mntanam you only 12 dont kill yourself please Onesimo. Cinga about the nice stuff we did as a family. Ndiyayazi I was never around but , the nice school we took you too, ubomi esikunike bona ndikuthanda njengo mntanam. I cried in silent and carried with what I was doing. He grabbed and quickly left me up, I passed out. Shes Awake , shes awake Doctor I opened my eyes it was a nurse, I was in a hospital, fancy one , not a public the nurses and doctors were white. Doctor: Hey you awake your dad brought you here. She said smiling. Me: Where is he? Doc: He said hell come back but instead your mother came shes in the reception. Andisiwe walked in. Andisiwe: Baby she gave me a warm hug and I brokedown. Me: Im sorry mama. Andisiwe: No mntanam Im sorry, the doctors say ubu depressed and I understand why. Me: Uphi utata? Andisiwe: Ndizokuxelela istorie endlini sanalwam. Doc: Let me examine her and shell be ready to go. Andisiwe: Okay let go finish off the form. She left. Me: How long have I been here? Doc: 3 days and I gave you an injection so that I can clean your thigh hound. I smiled. Doc: there goes a beatiful smile. You have a dimple nice haha we gonn be buddies. Me: haha you remind me of Mr Edros my Teacher from grade 4 till now his gonna be our teacher till grade 7 and hell go where is my dimple huh. We both laughed at that. Doc: You cute little fella. I smiled. Doc: Everything is alright you free to go home. Me: Doctor can I ask? Doc: Yes sweety. Me: Who paid for the bill? Doc: oh your dad did. Me: okay. Doctor? Doc: Yes Darling. Me: When you were my age did you ever go through something that you wouldnt tell your mom or friends about you just needed someone you trust? Doc: Your accent where do you attend school? Me: Montevideo I smiled. Doc: Nice one hell of a good school. Find a teacher to talk to a teacher you can really trust. Me: like Mr edros? Doc: Your choice sweety but make sure you trust him first. We smiled. I got into the new clothes Mom brought me. I looked behind and it was mom. Me: Doc How long have she stood there? I whispered. Doc: A while. She whispered back. Doc: Let me leave you too together. The doctor left. Mom: so you dont trust me Onesimo? Trust nhe. Its not that I dont trust her. The act of placing confidence in someone is not an easy thing especially when you dont know how theyll react. Trust is not an either or proposition, but a matter of degree, and certain life experiences can impact a persons ability to trust others. Ive never opened up to someone, I keep things to myself and Ive never opened up to anyone.Everyone has uncertainty about whom to trust, how much to trust, when not to trust, and so forth at one time or another. In fact, every day we make choices about whom and how much to trust, and sometimes we are more willing to trust than at other times. That’s a good thing; a total lack of mistrust would indicate a serious psychological problem. Judgments about when and whom to trust help keep us safe and alive! And I was scared too. I continued wearing and crushes were next to me I took them. My wound was bandaged. I walked towards mom. Doc came in she hugged me and gave mom my pills and kissed my chick We walked out in silent, got to the car and drove off. An hour later we were home . Mom gave me my pills I drank and slept. Woke up the following day it was a school day. Mom asked if Im going and I said yes. I prepared bekunzima ke but ndanyamezela. Me: Mama ,Tata uphi? She smile and she drove us to school said our goodbyes. Got to the school yard and saw Chanice and called her she came running. Chanice: Utheni? Me: haha long story mngani. Chanice: hahaha awudiki. Bell rang. Me: Just on time. We laughed and walked in class. Got to class our teacher was Mr Langavelt and he taught us Afrikaans. It his first lesson and it was super boring. Kids asked what happened and I said I fell off the bridge and theyd laugh. I was full of jokes. I never brought my personal life to school I hid behind a smile and laughed a lot. The person was over after what seems to be forever we went to Edros. He taught us Technology, English and Natural Science. Edros: hahaha No wonder you were gone for a week. Me: Sir it was only 3 days chin. Edros: There goes my smile class lets give simo a hand of a clause, shes back. He said clapping and everyone clapped too. Me: Mxm yadika yazi lo. Chanice: Say that again. We both laughed. He had a serious look . Me: Now what. Edros: Watch your language young lady. Me: Whatever. I mumbled those words. He laughed. Lesson was technolgy and it was fun. After school. Zikhona and her friends made funny comments but I ignored them. Walked to the car and drove off. Mom: Ndinendaba ezimnandi ke ? Me: whats that? Mom: we divorced uvumile after so many years uvumile. Me: what? Mom: Tatakho ude wasishiya his gone his out of ourlives. Yes bendimthanda naye ebendithanda but ibingasebenzi. Me: Uphi USibusiso? Mom: Sondlula ngaye pha eskolweni sakhe. She looked at me and I looked down. Im happy his gone, I wouldnt be able to look him in the eye.
Posted on: Mon, 14 Jul 2014 09:30:06 +0000
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