Instead of a collage (I may do one throughout the month which - TopicsExpress

Instead of a collage (I may do one throughout the month which means more then 1post I hope thats okay with everyone...) I have decided to choose a song. https://m.youtube/watch?v=nWey1DBAchM The song I have chosen is one of the goodbye songs. Way before she was ill, years ago, she would always play this song and she would say this is the song I want for when I go of course you dont think about it, you kinda nervously laugh it off because you think youve got many many years to go before you hear it like that. Unfortunately, We had to hear it a lot sooner then expected. Each time I listen to it now, I can jus see Mom singing along to it, you know how you say aloud the bits of songs you know or that highlights how you feel? She would always sing that bit louder for we shall meet- I know and especially 2:31 feel so weak- be strong and when I hear those parts of the song it sends a chill down my spine cause its not a-ha I hear its my Mom, it comforts me yet also hurts its not her real voice. I guess she chose this song cause its her letting us know, that no matter what, she wants us to carry on, be strong and if we do as she wishes shell be there for us at the end of it all like she always has been. Its been 3months today (I go by the date) and people say oh you should be starting to come to terms with it of course its not directly at me, its whenever they have nothing to gossip about and so use that for another 30seconds to seem interesting when really if you have to talk about such a subject youre clearly thicker then pigshit. I can still see her, with that amazing smile, when she was taking the tablets, the bright smile when she came back from that place next to the library, apparently its a Drs? Either way, that place said she was progressing well and she smiled brighter then Ive ever seen cause she believed shed be here for longer, we all believed, I believed that Id still be watching The Chase or watching Heartbeat for longer. (She still got more questions right then me) There are times when I have no desire, no get up and go, I jus feel numb but when I feel myself welling up, wanting to do something silly, I sense her soft voice saying be strong in my head and I wont let her down. Never. I love you so so much Mom Hand in Hand Forever ❤️❤️