It sucks to look around and see all the relationships. No matter what friend im with, Im third wheeling. It gets old. I get sad and alone because I envy those who have relationships. So I rush into relationships, fully knowing that Im in a relationship with someone who I know isnt the right person, but I choose to suppress that and go with it anyway. I know its a horrible thing to do because I know that Im setting up the other person for sadness and it literally doesnt bother me in the least which is messed up. Dont get me wrong I do try and try and try, but in the very back of my head I know that Im trying so hard to prolong the inevitable truth of the relationship not working. Yeah Im immature, Im a jerk sometimes, and yes Im aware that Im condescending, but if there is one thing I know , its that Im smarter than people think I am. I know my faults, I can tell you my faults, but the list is too long. No one is perfect. People judge me and I know it. The difference is , youre judging me for my habits so you dont have to sit around and realize your own. Youre not perfect so stop acting like it. If I have a problem with you, Ill say it to your face because Im a true friend and an honest person. I dont care if you dont believe, congrats... I dont care if you do or dont. I dont go on these rants for no reason or to make some people laugh, no I do these because this is my way of venting and not having to hear people make it about themselves or just stare blankly at me not paying attention then saying,sorry to hear that or itll be okay... Really? I was unaware that you could see the future, would you mind giving me tomorrows lottery numbers? Those sayings are so cliche. Half the time Im at work Ill sit there with a dumb look on my face listening to peoples conversations and all I hear is chirp chirp chirp chirp its annoying. At least when I complain it has no filter and it is funny. I wish I had someone that could give me some decent advice, but no one can. I have to find these things out alone. If youve stuck with this and are still reading congrats, youre a true friend. I believe Im done now. To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment. -Ralph Waldo Emerson
Posted on: Tue, 20 Jan 2015 02:38:28 +0000
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