Its everyday that we are grateful, but the holidays are so much more special with Hudson here to share it with. Hes not hooked up to tubes, wires and IVs. We arent confined to a room, missing our family and friends. Though hes free... I will never forget those times we struggled. I watched a video earlier this morning as I was clearing space for pictures. While watching I remember part of me being terrified that I might be capturing one of the last times I would hear his voice and see him moving freely. He was in septic shock, and just before the video he was rushed to the ICU. I didnt start recording until it wasnt so emergent but it still puts my stomach in knots seeing his better. He had vomited a little bit of blood, was inconsolable and his body had begun to tremble uncontrollably. They inserted a tube to drain any blood and mucus, they pushed a lot of fluid directly into his central line, and put him on a high flow cannula at its max, but he couldnt have pain meds. They were afraid it would make him lazy and he would deteriorate even faster. The Dr. was rushing in every few minutes ready to give the command to sedate and intubate. His body was basically shutting down and without immediate intervention he wouldnt be pulling the gumdrop garland off my Christmas tree right now. It was a moment of panic that we had experienced one too many times....and today Im going to share it with you. The words I speak will never compare to actually seeing it. I dont raise awareness about pediatric cancer for Hudson, its too late for him..he has already received treatment. I advocate for your son, daughter or grandchild that has yet to be diagnosed because they have a chance to be spared of this torture. This is the reality our children live in the world of current chemotherapy treatments. This Christmas think of all the children that wont be spending it at home, all the parents trying to make the best of the situation in hopes of getting just a smile from their sick babes, and all of the nurses who will be sacrificing time with their family in order to take care of someone elses. Remain humble this holiday season..and really really soak in the moments and smiles shared with your family. This is my #hudstrong warrior refusing to sink ⚓️.
Posted on: Wed, 24 Dec 2014 17:06:27 +0000
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