Its getting closer to facing Ill be on the road again. I am a little nervous, but I feel I should be fine. Ill be hanging out with cool folks and I should be able to think my way through if I get an anxiety flare up. Well its 2:10am Im debating pulling an all nighter, since its cooler right now. Oh the whole issue with dealing with the Medicare and MediCal/Medicaid combining, its worth calling member services because the primary care doctor I was sent to had a Sunset Dr. address, thats far. I requested a local PCP listing and turns out, I can walk to one of the doctors offices. Well that means making some phone calls tomorrow to cancel and make appointments, besides other calls to manage member services. Honestly I shouldnt be up all night. I dont know if I have an appointment with my pills dispenser and shrink, I think I do considering the amount of pills left of one medication. I think he can fax or call in my script since its not a narc. I was relating with my friend and their experience with psych meds. I told them like it is with diabetics and insulin; being bipolar requires medication to balance the brain chemistry. With therapy, coping skills and time, the amount of medication and therapy sessions can be reduced. I wouldnt chance going off my meds. My body is addicted to certain medication, I take it out, I withdraw and good luck winding down my mind to sleep and rest. 2:22am Im gonna call it a night better and hopefully not wake up too late in the day that I do miss out on appointments. I didnt get the reminder courtesy call Tuesday. I still should call and check with my pharmacy if I have a refill script on file. So happy thought. Even with my hardships, I can say Im okay because I can still smile. The stuff I was sweating, pretty much over it. Now to have some space. I got to fact check with Red Cross how long in between tattoos can I donate blood. Mari and I spoke yesterday of plotting my ink layout and start covering my skin with color. I dont want to get too crazy with how many works in progress, or healing tattoos to be better said, I want going at once. Well if Im disqualified with donating blood, then I may get inked this weekend. I got my right 1/4 sleeve to finish coloring in and fix the mistakes of a person I do not like very much but I had a part in my ink getting messed with. We spoke about adding another name on my right arm, this is right above my armpit and Ill have to be positioned funny so Mari can reach the spot. Then its tattooing a few names on the bullets in my arm band. Yknow the saying Everybody has a bullet out there with their name on it. I guess if certain names are inked in to those bullets, then I carry the bullets that would have been aimed at these folks I love and care deeply for. There will be something bittersweet with the bullets names, but it tells a story of my life. Whats funny as it really hit me, Maris work on me may actually become familiar with them peeking through in photos. I know my 22 7.62 bullet band is my trade mark, same with chest sparrows. I get to finish my chest plate! Im Maris American Traditional/Sailor Jerry practice dummy, so we help each other out. I get my ink, she gets a canvas. Well that be it at 2:44am ~Chaps
Posted on: Wed, 10 Sep 2014 09:49:11 +0000
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