Its time to admit that I have a serious phobia. I deeply fear that I have misplaced my passport. I wake up in the night and wonder where it is and then scrounge around until I find it so that I can sleep. I keep putting it in places where I am sure it wont get lost and then I forget where those places are, and those places keep changing so I have to relentlessly think about where my latest non-lost place is. As I travel I suddenly have a sense that Ive lost it and reach to find it and feel fine -- until an hour later when I think I must have lost it again. This damn passport dogs me constantly, like I can never entirely free myself from my fear that it is misplaced or gone. Im forever plotting how I can get another when I lose it even though Ive never lost it. Its become a serious life-controlling, mind-obsessing problem that I cant get over. Even when Im holding it, I have a sense that my security is temporary, that it is about to be lost, that it will somehow slip away. The only real solution here is that passports have to be forever abolished.
Posted on: Tue, 11 Nov 2014 01:32:12 +0000
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