Ive been a bit absent lately and not able to keep up with messages, or the net in general. Apologies, I really appreciate the support. Things are just utterly overwhelming. Frustration doesnt begin to cover it. Its been one blow after another. Learning that I cannot exist near olive groves, whether organic or not (I literally cannot be in any proximity to pesticides, and organic farms use copper which proved lethal for me) and finding that the entire Tabernas area is a hive of activity for olive-farming meant that I had to abandon the villa, and sadly subsequently the next desert dwelling I escaped to. Heartbreakingly, after experiencing a brief but definite moment of improvement (waking up one day and managing to actually walk out of the bloody casa myself), I went into a sharp decline the moment they started to burn their fuel for heating and the smoke relentlessly filled the air. Said fuel? Copper fungicide-infused olive waste :(. You cannot stay in the actual desert in Tabernas. We have found a potential site on the edge of it.. where we can park a hire RV for an experiment IF we can work out a way to heat it and make it workable without electricity.. but that cant be done this week. So, after a night in a four-star horrendous mould pit in Cabo de Gata, I am back on the east coast, albeit in a different country, in a small and basic hotel that is right on the beach and it at least gives me an out. I think its about the best I could have hoped for; mould-but-minimal, and the wind has made it very clear to me that the area isnt great.. but I know where to FIND clean air.. we can GET to it.. and suddenly things almost feel within reach of being manageable again :). The frustration is Ive had to bring my barely adequate supply of now contaminated clothes with me because I cant afford to buy more, and thus I cant take the very basic first steps I need to in order to just decontaminate and make an attempt to get as clear as possible every day. I know this was never going to be easy, particularly when I am a ME sufferer who cant care for herself and who has never had an income, but right now I just cant wrap my head around the fact that my immediate needs are really quite basic.. to be warm, clothed, clean, and to breathe clean air.. and how difficult-to-meet those seem to be. Bonkers! :(
Posted on: Tue, 11 Nov 2014 20:19:13 +0000