Ive had a great time these last 5 years. I feel very blessed to be able to travel all the time, see amazing places, and meet awesome people. I am super grateful for all of it.. i really am. Five years ago tho, one of my best friends died when I was 17. Still to this day.. worst day of my life. I just remember being so angry for so long. Instead of dwelling on good times with my friends before that happened, I chose to fill my heart with anger. And to be completely honest..... deep down, the anger never left. It consumed my life for so long, lingering, making me do unkind things to people, driving me crazy, and just slowly destroying me from the inside out. Most super close friends didnt or dont even know this about me. The truth is this anger in my life was ruining me. I thought anger was the best solution after losing a best friend, for some reason it felt more right to me to be angry from everything happening in my life. I mean come on.. how could I not be angry after a best friend dies..right? WRONG I couldnt of been more wrong. Life is beautiful, being alive or dead. In reality, they are both the same.. to me at least. We are all just balls of energy.. and its our choice how we leverage that energy. Either for good or evil. Ive chosen negative energy for so long and this is why I was wrong. Ive been to places so dark.. part of me doesnt understand why Im still here. For some reason I am though, and Im going to take advantage of it while Im still here. I encourage anyone out there that has lost or potentially loses a loved one in the future to learn from my mistakes. Please learn from me and dont fill your heart with anger. It will slowly destroy you and take you to really dark places. Places I promise you do not want to go. If you fall into the same trap I did, you will miss out on how beautiful life is during those yours. Youll miss it and years down the road youll realize it was a mistake... If your in the trap or get trapped there... Continue to ask your self questions like this, why do I do this to myself? would my friend or family member really want me to be like this or feel this way? The answer is no.. they dont. they want you to feel alive, they want you to feel love, they want you to live, they want you to be influential, they want you to be a positive ball of energy, they want you to do good, they want you to be kind, they want you to succeed, and they want you to be happy. After a loved one dies you shouldnt have to feel guilty to live, love, and laugh. Tell yourself daily, its ok to feel good again.. its ok to be happy. Thats what my friend or family member would want. Tell yourself this constantly and youll slowly start to come back to the light and not live in such negativity. I have chosen to start living a life with better thinking habits, a life of positivity that radiates love and happiness. The kind that is very infectious, where people just naturally gravitate towards you cause there is something different about you. There is people in this world out there like that. And thats who I choose to be because that is who I was designed to be and thats how my friend Hunter Graham was. Love life, smash life, get after life, LIVE life and be alive. Its very simple.. and then people will start to live and do the same as you do. You will become an inspiration.. I encourage all of you to try and strive to live this way. Its such a happier life filled with positivity. Fear less, live more. Im also genuinely sorry to any friends out there... if I was mean to you or hurt you in any way, it wasnt fair and I apologize. Last night I was able to go to a Hillsong concert and I believe It was the first time I sang a spiritual song since my friend passed away. Yes, It had been that long, and thats how long there has been a wall around my heart. Im stoked to say though, last night was a start to not living in so much anger. Im really excited.. so I had to tell you, not only for myself but hopefully to inspire and encourage a few others to live in positivity as well. Ive played in both arenas ladies and gents.. and let me tell you, the light side is so much more fun and infectious. Cheers and I love you all! Love you Hunt. Cant wait to get to heaven with you and toss back a few beers together. Gosh thatll be fun ha. See ya when I see ya. later player. Here is one of the songs from the concert. hope you enjoy. Cheers!
Posted on: Sun, 16 Nov 2014 07:32:13 +0000
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