January 11, 2010 I was working at the Sheraton Hotel in New York City with the Rev. Jesse Jackson on his yearly push conference and concert. My responsibilities entailed preparations for concert performed by artists Lela Hathaway. She was performing at the push conference concert that evening. I will never forget that day; it very cold and snowing. I was also very stressed and in a lot of pain that day. All I can remember is that I had so much pain in my back. I had been in New York for a bout 2 months, as I had just moved from Los Angeles to New York. I have always been the type of man who worked out every day. I had given it a break but now that I was in New York and working out again, I began to feel some back pain. I believed that the pain was coming from my workout but the pain began to worsen as the days went by. I kept it moving because I was a man who worked out all the time. I assumed that that pain was directly a result of me working out. But this particular day I remember taking Tylenol and pain medication, for this pain was a lot different from other pains that I had experienced. Because of the creative spirit in me, I had allowed myself to work in pain while running around checking all of the details for the concert that I had been hired to work on. Later that day, in the midst of the workflow, one my dear friend asked me “James why you walking like that?” I said “what do you mean?” and she said, “Your body is tilting over!” At that time, I paid no attention to my body and later on as I was getting dressed for the event, I started feeling a severe pain in my back area. I remember standing and looking at myself in the mirror wearing my favorites black tuxedo with leather pants. It was very stylish but I was in so much pain. However, as always, I had a very important job to do so I once again just kept it moving. I was working in the Sheraton ballroom, making sure that everything for the concert was in place. It was important to keep on top of the communications with the staff to make sure we had everything covered. This was especially important when it concerned the president of the push organization, Jesse Jackson and his family. My job was to make sure that the family was treated like royalty and to make sure the concert was a great success. I remember that I had to use the restroom and on my way to the restroom, I collapsed on the floor of lobby of the Sheraton hotel. This is how this journey began for me. I remember it was as if my legs gave out from under me, and later I could not move them. At that moment two beautiful African-American women who were passing nearby, dressed very elegant and feminine (they looked like they had just jumped off a fashion magazine cover) they saw me collapse and they rushed over and assisted me. As elegant and feminine as they were, those two young ladies picked me up and set me on a chaise lounge in the lobby. I remember one of them asked me a lot of questions like “do you feel dizzy?” “Is there a possibility that your sugar may be low?” in that moment she pulled out her cell phone and called a doctor friend of hers. That Dr. instructed them to get me some orange juice, and the other young lady rushed into the bar of the hotel to get me a glass of orange juice. I remember hearing the MC announcing that the show is about to begin and all I can think is that the staff is probably worried about where I am I remember saying please dont call 911 because in my mind I did not want the guests see me being rolled away on a gurney. Now I understand that self-pride gets you nowhere when you are suffering. But there was something about the look in the eyes of one of the young ladies who said to me “I lost a brother and I lost a father to diabetes, and Im not going to stand here and go through this with you.” She asked, “Do you realty want to die here in the lobby of the Sheraton Hotel?” I remember this 6’6” Black stallion of a man who was the head waiter, and I had been communicating with him all evening on the setup for the ballroom and he walked past and he heard the young ladies with panic in their voices saying “we need to get you some help!” He walked up, and he said “ladies what is the problem?” They began to share with him what they had witnessed about how I had collapsed right before their eyes and that I now have no feelings in my legs. They also told him that I refused to call 911, and that man looked at me with so much pride and he said to me “do you want to die?” At that moment I began to understand that something was terribly wrong with me. One of the youngs ladies pulled her cell phone out of her Chanel bags and began to dial 911. At that time I asked them to go and get one of my friends Sandra Adams who was also hired to work on this event and they brought Sandy back and explained to her what had taken place. She said, “I agree, I think you need to call 911.” So I gave in and they made the call moments later the paramedics showed up and they began to question me about the situation. They said, “Sir, can you stand?” In my head I thought I could stand and I tried to stand but then I collapsed again. At that moment the two paramedics lifted me up and put me on the gurney and rushed out through the open doors to the ambulance that was parked out front. Just then it began to snow; I mean really snow. I guess in my mind I was afraid just like a little child because I had no idea what was happening to me. Finally we pulled up in front of St. Lukes Hospital where I was rushed into triage and I remember that the nurse asked how I felt, and what seems to be the problem. Once I explained, they rushed into the room and they said the doctor will be in momentarily but it still seemed like forever. I remember how I needed to use the bathroom so bad and I couldnt do so. In spite of that I tried to get up off the bed and I collapsed once again. I fell on the floor in the Triage area, and I began to scream at the top of my lungs “help!! Somebody help please!!” I could see through the glass window a bunch of nurses at the front desk laughing and talking, it seemed that no one could hear my cry for help. Right at that moment, there was a little elderly white woman walking past my door and she heard me screaming for my life. Curious, she looked at those nurses and said “this man needs help!” and they all ran and began to do their jobs. Soon after, they got a doctor who came in and he rushed my paperwork through admissions to get a room. I can remember the doctor saying to me “we need to do at MRI” and this had to be around one in the morning. The problem was that there was no one on duty, and I remember him or her calling a guy named Rick to come in to do the MRI. Let me just say I am very claustrophobic. Looking back, I remember being strapped down into the MRI machine and it felt like I was being strapped down into a Casket. And the next thing I know Im inside the awful dreadful machine. I believe I was in there for just one second that I just began to panic and asked to let me out because I could not do it. They gave me some medication that put me in a relaxed and dazed state of mind almost asleep, but when I awakened the doctor said to me that we did not see anything that looked abnormal. I remember the doctor asking me to describe to him once again where I felt the pain. Then he realized that the MRI had just covered the lower spine, but my issue was in the higher spine area and so I was off once again for a second MRI in the same day. This time, they discovered I had an abscess pressing against my spine and in the same day I underwent a major emergency spinal surgery to remove the abscess. In the morning when I had awoke, there was one of my dearest friends Adriana sitting in a chair across the room from me she looked at me and she said “big daddy how do you feel?” and I said “sleepy” and then she replied “well you just had major surgery on your spine.” Moments later, a team of doctors showed up at my bedside and they said “Mr. ElCock we are the team that performed your surgery”. The head doctor asked me “can we remove the sheet from your body?” and he advised me “we need for you to wiggle your toes.” At that moment I realize I had no feelings in of my legs. I was devastated. I remember being terrified, asking the doctor “what does this mean?” He just looked at me…he never answered the question, and he walked away. An hour later a set of different doctors, all women, asked me if I could move my toes and I remember a beautiful Filipino doctor removed the sheet from my body and they asked me to move my toes again. This time I was able to move my big toe just a little bit and I mean it you should have seen the expression on that team of doctors faces…it was priceless. Just the joy in their eyes gave me some hope. Moments later standing in front of me was another team of six doctors. They were making major decisions on the next move in my recovery. With a great deal of intensity and urgency they coordinated the ambulance to transport me to a different hospital, Mount Sinai, where they had a reputation for excellent work in spinal cord injuries. Right before they transported me, I had this dream and in the dream I just saw white rainbow bright lights and I remember waking up ringing the panic button and I told the nurse was in charge that I believe Im having a heart attack and she looked at the monitors and with so much compassion in her eyes she said “no youre not having a heart attack, you might be just fine.” She told me to relax; they were preparing to transport me in a couple of hours so she needed me to get some rest. Soon, the gentleman arrived with the gurney that took me to the first floor as they are prepared to take me to Mount Sinai hospital. I guess what kept me sane is my belief in my relationship with God Almighty who early on in this tragedy gave me the strength to convince and condition myself to only think in the moment and look only forward to the next day. I could not afford to look back at the past; I had to use my strength to deal with the present. At this point, I havent told any family or close friends what had happened to me, it was just me, my God and the one friend that I needed to have at the hospital as required by the rules. It is amazing when you face challenges and your survival depends on surrendering yourself to God. As a little boy I believed what was told to me but now as a man Im actually having to walk in this thing called faith and trust that Gods love for me is now revealing itself to me, giving me the courage that comes from this place of Gods love for me. It was extraordinary; it gave me comfort when times were difficult. It allowed me to develop a better and clearer relationship with God and I realized in this moment that we come into the world by ourselves and we will depart this world ourselves. So now my life is a testimony of walking with faith, and understanding that at this time and at this point in my recovery I still could not physically walk. Yet to walk with God is not a physical path, its a spiritual transformation to a new place, new environment, new staff but all in the same journey. Here I was, 50 years of age, paralyzed and dealing with the healthcare industry and the politics that go along with hospitals, trying to get the best care possible. Its only because of Gods order that this was even possible for me and I remember praying after being admitted that, God willing, I would overcome this tragedy. I realized for that to happen, I had to start with a place of humbleness and so I decided early on that no matter what or no matter who I was only going to bring out the best in any and all people and situations and I began to live in that journey and I believe that God creates the soldiers that he needs to be able to overcome the obstacles they face. With his guidance, any and every thing that appears to be bigger than one-self is no longer insurmountable. My doctor at Mount Sinai was this very short Jewish man with a big personality who not only medically took care of me but also helped me in lots of different ways that most physicians do not cross the line. He encouraged me as he spoke very frightening and I believe that all times he was very honest is name is Dr. Klein. At that moment in time I really did not understand that God uses doctors as instruments to help us to overcome any medical challenges that we may have. It starts with a doctor and patient relationship, a partnership, but I must say that this staff was like God-sent. They were highly professional, from the doctors, nurses, nurse aide, nutritionists as well as physical therapist, they all work together for my greater good I began to realize that healing is truly a process that takes faith, discipline, structure and dedication. More important was the renewing of the mind because it all starts there. I remember on Valentines Day a very good friend of mine named Sean surprised me and came all the way from Los Angeles California and I was asleep. The nurse came in to my room and she said “someone is here to see you” and in my mind Im thinking “I dont think so” but just in that moment Sean stepped around the curtain that separated me from another patient located in the same room. All I remember is that there was this six-foot tall man dressed in an overcoat and hat that covered half of his face. In one hand he had a box of chocolates. You see, all my friends knew that I love me some chocolate. Sean gave me the box of chocolates and he looked at me and he said “hey man, how are you doing?” The thing is that Sean and I have always had a very dysfunctional friendship throughout the years many times always ending up in a disagreement about something. We are two African-American men with very strong opinions and personalities, but in my mind and my heart I was so overwhelmed with joy that he dropped everything he was doing and came to New York to see about his friend. At the end of the day, I realized what the true meaning of friendship looks like for me. Sean had demonstrated his unconditional love for me. He took his jacket off and he said to me “I come here to do some healing work on you so I just need you to relax and concentrate on the words that I am speaking to you in this moment. I need for you to visualize three scenario that consist of something wonderful that you want to experience in the future and he gave an example of each. You run a track meet but yourself at that place when youre on the track you hear the whistle and youre ready to run, so he said “describe for me your first vision” and I said to him “because you know me and my dad have always had a very dysfunctional negative relationship” and I think it was because he wasnt there and not a dad for me. In my head any man can be a father, but it takes a true man a man of God to be a dad. I envisioned my dad and myself in a rowboat, having this great conversation about life and in this moment I could feel forgiveness filling up the space in my heart for my dad. The next vision, because I love to dance, naturally would be the on the dance floor to some great house music spinning twirling and shaking my butt until the wee hours of the morning. The third vision was with me and my sister Patricia who is my she hero and my best friend. This vision was of me and her walking along the beach while sharing stories about our childhood. Just then, Sean said “each day you get up in the morning I want you to play each one of those scenarios in your head, heart and mind. Really put yourself in each one of those places doing what you describe and playing with over and over again until each day that vision becomes clearer and clearer and he said “would you like for me to show you around the hospital?” and so I sat up he transferred my body onto the wheelchair and off we went for him to receive his private tour. For the first time in my life I really felt from another male friend compassion an unconditional love and I will never forget that moment for as long as I live. The imprint of that day is so profound and etched in my brain it was the experience and encouragement that I needed early into this journey. Sean gave me a big hug and said his goodbyes I remember talking to him the next day and he said when he got to the hotel and he laid down his whole body just became numbed and he could not move at all and he said “I gave you all of my energy”. Mother Anna is a minister, a gorgeous woman with a fantastic smile and a big heart who would come to the hospital with her anointing oil and massage and pray over my legs. Her daughter Felicia was responsible for contacting all of my family and friends. She was another person God had placed on my extraordinary team and she continued to support me throughout this journey. She was my angel. Now I get it… God will give you what you need at the time that you need but is your responsibility to walk in faith and small as a mustard seed. She also contacted my father to let them know that I was in the hospital with a spinal cord injury. I remember one snowy day this man who was my father called me and had upset me so much that that the doctor took the phone out of my hand and told him ever call here again. She never knew the things that he said to me on that phone that day, all she could see that whoever was on that phone had really upset me so. However, she could read the discomfort and see my blood pressure rising and I remember I just began to pray in my spirit just so I could calm down I asked God to please help me to not feel the hurt, pain and disappointment from this conversation with that man who supposed to be the man that helped create me. I will never understand where all of the strength and discipline came from; all I know is that Gods love protected me every step of the way in this spiritual journey that manifested itself in this injury. I learned that when the spirit has transformed you into what he needs you to be he will provide every thing, and every person and every situation will work in your favor. Everyday that I rolled myself into that gym to receive my physical therapy, I knew that this condition of me not being able to walk is not the life that Christ had for me. I believe I felt it and I began to live it. When it felt like the people around me did not believe that I would ever walk again, I prayed even harder for Gods healing and its amazing all the blessings that God provided for me every step of the way. You get the lesson, you get more healing, and you get the last yet more. It was so many lessons to be learned at this point in my life it almost fell like my world that I had created for 50 years was not the world that I had believed that it was. There were so many disappointments, from people and situations alike. The strength that comes to you in the moment you surrender yourself to Gods power will change your life forever. Its funny each morning when I would go to physical therapy, take an exercise in class that helped me to maintain my muscles in my upper part of my body and that is because the upper part in which carries the lower part and the stronger you are up top the easier it is to manipulate the bottom part. Clearly that class gave me so much inspiration because all the people around me were fighting for their lives but this class helped us to get stronger in our minds and our bodies. This was an exercise class with a huge rubber band that we use to the beat of music and I would always have my earphones on light music. I would listen to my favorite song “he saw the best in me while everybody else around could only see the worst in me,” every day over and over again. I embraced those words with all my heart. I must tell you I wore my butt off from that wheelchair everyday. This one particular day the instructor said to me “tomorrow I will not be here, and I would like for you to teach the class; also play that gospel music that you listen to every day and let the patients work out with your music.” S The next morning, I was so excited like a little kid to be able to teach the class that I arrived early. I was sitting in my wheelchair and I had just begun to worship and praise the Lord with my music in my ears. I began to roll that wheelchair around and around and something got a hold of me and at that moment I lifted my legs straight up in the air! I stopped, and I thought my mind was playing tricks on me. As I lifted them up for the second time the class had began filling into the room. The patients and the therapists all began to clap, some were crying and a few ran over to me and began to hug me and race out to find my doctor. He was in a meeting and I barged into that meeting with tears in my eyes and my doctor grabbed at his heart and said to me “oh my God, oh my God!!” it was like he and saw a ghost. I remember looking directly in his face and one teardrop fell from his left eye and he said “this is unbelievable!” and I said “this is what this is happens when you trust in God and walk in faith.” That it all starts with great determination to create the vision you had in your mind and your heart you can only imagine how I felt at that its indescribable and I just remember playing in my head this on the presence of the Lord is here I can feel it in the atmosphere this was a very exciting for me I saw hope in a big way like starting to turn around for me the next morning I was introduced to the art therapy #I hospital provided for spinal injury patients did was a tool that I used to create convenient inspired you to hope for Does most of the time in my life I remember that day the instructor was showing us how to draw flowers. It all starts with great determination to create a vision in your head, in your mind and in your heart. You can only imagine how I felt that day. Its indescribable and I just remember playing in my head the song “the presence of the Lord is here I can feel him in the atmosphere.” This a was a very exciting for me I saw Hope in a big way life starting to turn around for me the next morning I was introduced to the art therapy that was building hospital provided for it spinal cord injured patients it was a tool that I used to create in the and inspire need to move forward at this most of the time in my life. I remember that day the instructor was showing us how to draw flowers industry needs and there was a patient man sitting next to me school is permanently disabled with the disease that prevented her all of her limbs except for her arms and hands but my God she was great at sketching and using watercolor and I remember saying to me can I show you something as she took my interpretation of the flower she immediately began to enhance my flower in our member saying to her you are really great at this and she replied you can be also and then she smiled. So after class I went to my room transported my body from the wheelchair to my bed and I grabbed a little in table I began to draw my interpretation the sunflower it was okay but something triggered me and I thought it makes sense to draw something that I can relate to so I began to draw faces because of my history as a makeup artist hairstylists an interior decorator that creative side of me help me to be good at drawing faces. So every day when I got up got up I began to draw faces and that is when I realize that drawing took the intention all the pain that I was feeling in the moment its like taking your paying as setting it aside create and you are and thats when I began to draw faces of the people around me for example nurses, nurses aids , patients and doctors as the faces were like images of the spirit itself of that individual so is more like a sketch cartoon but the amazing thing about it and when people entered my room I have these sketches placed on his bay window that based a new structure was building so at the same time I began to draw this building outside my window was being built. Its funny because I have one nurse name Yvonne little petite girl but very strong but with a very big heart and at times she would really let me have it she is one of the a v angel she looked after me as if I was her own see these are kinds of experiences that God allowed me to have it was like the brought me special in unique Angels that came in many shades many nationalities , personality also I cant forget my favorite nurse nurse Marie she was like a drill Sgt. in the Army but had so much compassion and professionalism she took her job very seriously I remember thinking to myself and praying in these words came to me your job is to bring out the best and everybody you meet. As days went on my I began to fill Bay window with self-portraits of all of the team and my recovery many times people would walk into my room and they would say to me that looks like some of the staff that works here so now let the competition began the staff but always questioned me when are going to do my portrait and among themselves they would figure out spirit like portraits that began two cover that window. For the first time in my life Im happen to walk a long dont get me wrong there were a few of my special friends like Adrian Smith Patrick McGee and Felicia Gibson my foot soldiers oh help me every step of the way its amazing how we do not get to choose the people who will come to a in the darkest times of our lives only God its the make the choice of the people hell have in place for you at the end of the day it makes you question yourself for instance was our loyal friend that do right by people did I give my best to people and at the end of the day none of that really matters as people our people and with that being said I had to begin to love unconditionally an except people where they are I must say that is one of the most painful experience that tormented me for days in weeks as well as months because I began to play in my here am I not worthy in my life it was important to me to make people happy in most of the time that happiness consisted of utilizing my talents in gifts that God had given me and also it brought me joy to make people laugh and Im not just a local. I mean Ive traveled all over the world many cities as well as countries God has blessed me see the world and at the end of the day here I lay day in and day out questioning myself when I go wrong because the people I most expected to be there in my time of need two doorsteps some death were nowhere to be found. So as a human being we question why me and in my prayers God answered me why not you you see God knows all about us the good the bad in the ugly and and in spite of it all he still loves his children he made us in his on image and powerful is that. Days went by weeks went by therapy every day exercising every day I so discipline it was like something new birth inside the my thoughts my heart in my mind made a connection and I keep going back in my head that song he saw the best in me when everybody else around could only see the worst in that was my songs of motivation. And let me just say all my of my therapists in this injury just happened to be Filipinos and Im sure its just a coincidence that they all happen to be from the Philippine but the therapy they provided me infinite energy as well as a compassion in the discipline was awesome they push me my limitation and I will be forever grateful that God had chosen the two walk-through what I thought whats the challenging time in my entire 50 on this Earth. I guess for me when I look at how not been able to walk is the very humbly experience especially when most of who you are pertains to your . Ability to walk because it allows you you have to survive from within which is in very spiritual and enlightening placed in the Gods love for me its so real so clear he favored me and now I get is not about the material that we require in this world but it is the substance of who we are it allows us to grow spiritually so that in our darkest days we can walk in this thing call Faith. It is now going on by third month at Mount Sinai it was early one Friday my dear Felicia surprise me and came by to visit and she brought with her its beautiful white orchids and also you know all of my friends knows I have a fetish for chocolate one handed with the filled with chocolate in the other hand with this beautiful orchid and I was so excited to see her because this day all that was in me I was going to try and stand on my own but first to prepare me to stand theres a technique that they use where they strap you into a harness and it allowed you to stand this machine used to help patients two prepare them. So to the gym with two of my therapist begin this process I sat down on the bench and next they began two strap me into position to stand the press this button in the hardest let my body into a stands position oh my God that there was a mirror directly across from me and I saw for the first time in a long time how tall it really was 6 foot four in the whole entire physical therapy gym for one moment was completely silent and I remember this patient named Helen said in her very soft voice my God you are so tall I can not believe this I guess from the wheelchair everybody is the same height so here I standing with tears going down my eyes because I looked over at my friend Felicia and she had tears rolling from this magnificent face and at that moment she took a camera and snap a picture of me standing for the first time always so overwhelmed gratitude and thankfulness but I remember saying to my therapist before I leave this facility I would like to take a step and she looked at me smiled and she said in her soft voice okay Mr. Elcock so that so that day was such a joyful day I went back to my room after saying goodbye to Felicia and I began to read my Bible in praying and thanking God for this great miracle and then my phone rang it was my sister Patricia calling me from Berlin Germany youre come from a family of seven but me and Patricia our one-year part and we so much alike in so many ways she looks like the female version of me shes always been like more of a mother figure to me and I tried to follow her footsteps wanting to travel want to go to school going to be the best and everything I did. I is a very aggressive but compassionate voice with a slight German accent she said how are you today my brother and I responded happy in to share with her the news of the day and I remember she became very silent and in that silence I can feel the relief i in her voice and she said see I told you going to happen you want to walk. She also asked me when should I come to visit you and I said to her my doctor have informed me that I would be having to make a decision on the next facility to continue my physical therapy so I said to her I would like for you to be here when I make my next transition this will be happening in about a months time so she agreed the in New York at the time that I made my transition to another facility its funny because of my doctors shared with me that is the time for me to start considering my next I had no idea that I would be leaving Mount Sinai at this stage because in my mind I assume that I would be walking out of this facility with assistance at all my doctor explained to me the numbers that help out you are strong enough can now leave the hospital you need to be somewhere where your receiving physical therapy and continue your rehab and I just couldnt wrap my head around but because here Im living in a place rep became so comfortable and got to know the staff now its time to go and there was so much fear and I remember asking my doctor would you suggest I go from this point I sent Dr. I would like to be somewhere near the hospital any reply this is facility across the street from Central Park which was around the corner from the hospital he said I used to be director of this facility and it has a physical therapy facility and upon the this facility which was a six floor had been remodeled and you can see directly into the park with a garden so I said that will be fine and he replied let me make some phone calls and I see what I can do meanwhile I went to the computer room and I Google parent Terence Cardinal Cooke and my God it was a beautiful facility. A month had passed and I was so excited that by big sister would be here on Friday of this week I mean everybody in the hospital knew about my sister Patricia because shes my sister soulmate so the day is here and Patricia will be here today but she did not give me a time and thats just like she she wanted to surprise and believe me she did I was in the bed talking to my roommates and and she walks and we make I contacted for the first time in a time she came over to my bed and I sat up and she Swedes to me so tight and I just began cried like a baby just so much joy so much relief and at that moment my Dr. Klein walk into a room and introduced himself and he says finally I get to meet the famous Patricia and she just smiled and she asked my doctor how is he doing my doctor replied hes a trooper hes a fighter and hes going to be okay some so my doctor said Im going to go and let you guys have some time to gather and so we talked for hours so we decided that I would give her a tour of the facility I remember asking her which she roll my wheelchair closer to my bed so that I could transfer myself and she said whats the magic word and has said please and off we went through the hallways and Im just so proud to introduce my sister to the staff and all the comments were how beautiful she was. So I have physical therapy in about an hour in some of the therapist said bring your sister and I said sure you know Patricia is always been my she hero from a very large family of seven me and Patricia share the same father and because that we are so much alike and we look so much alike in that spirit of willpower in faith and encourage its just the tools we used to navigate living around the world pursuing our dreams and a lot of times was misunderstood because of our will want to do better our will comes from directly from my mom L0is Marie Harrison Gantt this was a good day I mean I think because of Patricia energy being there with me she made me in my mind, I spiritual mind push myself even further than what our party is m it was such a joy to have her there with me to share in this experience because at this point I realized is not a tragedy its an experience and experience to make me a better man in creating a closer relationship with a higher being. Every time I think about the plague her life on hold to come a travel already prevented Germany to see about a baby brother is so overwhelming and every time I think about that sacrifice at her unconditional love it always brings tears to my eyes shes a tower of strength class i she is just what God ordered from me at this point in my experience every day she would come and she would question me for further the first time ever leaving the facility in the wheelchair was with her because in my mind in my arrogance I did not want anyone to see me in a wheelchair she maybe soups, she covered me she prayed with me but the most special part about this the relationship is the gift that God gave her and thats the gift of healing hands she did several spiritual healing treatments with me and I remember being in a slight daze and I remember so clearly my body was warm my spirit with white and God and through Gods power she used her hands as she massaged my feet i and the legg and what honor to have a unique and also sister. Her main goal was to be here in this place at this time to help me make my transition to my new residents but oddly the data I was making this transition was the day she decided to go shopping this is the data by My phone call to say a spot have become open and that this day I could transfer to enacted here this deep voice in the hallways saying Im here the new facility and I remember the social worker coming in to my room that can tell me the good news that I could move on this day him But I remember I said that before I left Mount Sinai Ill want to take my first step and so that day in the hallway my therapist another gentleman with the Walker I took that step later on that day I began to pack my things it was such an emotional day and a lot of it was the stress of not knowing whats next for me but I realize in this moment and when you on the journey of walking in faith God definitely has your back. Fired up and already to go I said my goodbyes I cried I remember my heart was racing as we headed toward the elevator with me holding my bag my nurse on one side in the ambulance driver on the other and her road into the elevator and as unsettling and I said goodbye to nurse Marie and as the elevator doors were closing the gentleman said to me so where are we on our way to and I responded by saying two beautiful Terrence Cardinal Cook and I remember him looking at me a second youve got to be kidding me that dump in the elevator door shut at all I could think what horror we arrived downstairs in the lobby he pulled the ambulance of he opened the door and assisted me in my wheelchair into ambulance and we just a few blocks and right across the street from Central Park was this huge facility I have realized I should use the and I remember walking through the lobby it was so dark and creepy it looks like a funeral home I was truly disappointed because when I saw the facility online it was so beautiful but now Im here it was horrible and he took me to the sixth floor and when the elevator door opened all I can smell with its file older you smell like the mens bathroom at the train station in my head I kept thinking this is not the place sign up for and the nurse at the front desk asked me my name and she said to me have been waiting for you Mr. Elcock
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