Just having a bit of reflection this morning... what a difference 5 months can make. I feel as though I have been given new life; like the Holy Spirit has kissed into me a new exsistance. My status updates look soooo different (hitting bottom = desperation) realizing that despite a house full of people, i was still very ALONE AND HURTING (desperation=pain) deciding I need to find another way and escaping into a bottle was NOT going to make everything go away (pain = need to heal) Having the desire to feel WHOLE for once in my life (acceptance/TRUTH=first step), needing strength when i felt soooo incredibly weak (first step=humble) walking into church, TERRIFIED, humiliated, full of self hate, completely broken and absent of self worth (humble=open heart), FINALLY feeling the kind of love a newborn child must feel from its parents touch, kiss and embrace (open heart=conviction) finally understand what SELF LOVE truly means through the UNCONDITIONAL love of Christ (conviction=forgiveness) and lastly I have come to a place that I no longer feel this aching pain; this hollowness, this self loathing, no longer hate looking in the mirror...no longer do I feel unworthy of love.....life is awesome (forgiveness=REDEMPTION) All things TRULY ARE possily in Christ Jesus! GOD IS ALIVE AND HE LIVES IN ME!
Posted on: Sat, 05 Apr 2014 11:55:28 +0000
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